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Finally... my new group KRACE...

2010-10-20T01:51:00.003+08:00

Seems like the blogger system has a little bit of problems these days..

I always wanna belong to a group that is highly enthusiastic. Fantastic! I founded KRACE.

KRACEees have been very supportive in loads of time. Though I haven't thoroughly know all the members, I am very glad we are always gathering with the common purpose. KRACE is founded on July 10th,2010 (10072010). They are very lovely group of people. I really hope that KRACE is not just a superficial group. I want it to be another place when my KRACEees feels like family. I am a human-being. It is always said to me that human-being are partial differentiated and you wouldn't know what a stranger would be to you. It just feel really peculiar. Most of them I know them barely half a year but yet I feel that we could be friends, those selfless kind. There are 13 of them now. In case you are wondering, below states my KRACEees.

KRACEees (in no running order):
1. Me (of course)
2. Vivian Leong
3. Madeline Chng
4. Khatijah
5. Sheena Tay
6. Jaz Tan
7. Jessica Liao
8. MingYan
9. Sakinah
10. Xuan Nee
11. TingXu
12. MingFong
13. Nicholas Parrott

Will there be more members? Who knows. I am trying to draw this family of friends closer to each other. If one day anyone were to leave kpop, I still hope KRACE is still around. I love this group a lot. I hope I m able to maintain the group well. KRACEees~! I am really glad to have you guys, thanks for appearing. Definitely left great impact in me. I hope all of us could stay close together. I want to protect this group so much, because I really love all! Words can't describe much; I am never good at writing too.

Yupp another group of dearies I have!

Blessed as always.

:D

emotional week

2010-10-11T12:41:00.002+08:00

So many things seems to be surreal to me these days. I dont want to mention to remind myself once more. I know how much me and the whole sim's family have been through. It is an enormous pandemonium.

I have always been very blessed in a lot of ways; and I am a person whom always counts my blessings. Be it that there is 100 bad things that had ever happened to me and no matter how I hard or how much effort is needed for me to forget those things I will put in the effort to let it go. I always think that those bad things that had happened to me is not something worth an inch in my mind.

So much things to blog about. but i shall blog about it tommorrow~!

Happy Belated Birthday Kiat Yin

2010-10-02T00:42:00.003+08:00

Happy Belated Birthday KIAT YIN~!

I m really happy that Kiat Yin has invited me there~! It's really a pity that rachel is not there today, but I really enjoy myself today.

The funny thing today is that today I reported to the wrong timbre~! I went to the one behind SMU~! I walked alone wearily to the right one at old school. I need to train my stamina! Phew~!

I really treasure birthdays! I really do! :D Thanks for inviting me girl~!

I am really glad I brought my citibank card. Our bill today is $248 plus. Citi-bank is given 10% off. Lucky girl! I enjoyed the pizza more than the steak. Thanks for sharing with me Asta~! Loves. We did a lot of polaroid spamming just now~! Really a lot!

It's time to save up after much indulgence. I m meeting my primary school classmate next Friday. It's another round of good food and good picture. Might drop-by to visit Mr Ho Wei Kang too. :D

I will scan all polaroids tmr dear~! I am working at 313 Somerset for Suddenly Slender tommorrow and Sunday from 1-5pm and 6pm-10pm at Hotpot Marina Square. Feel free to pop by and visit me tommorrow~!

HELLO AGAIN to my dearest blog

2010-09-29T01:49:00.010+08:00

People may thought I have gone mad, but I am going to reopen my blog now~!

School has reopened for me and since my last post, it seem like a lot more interesting thing has participated in my life. This would be my 201st post for this blog. I can't delete this blog away since it has captured so much of my memories in my secondary school. Just couldn't bear to delete it away.

Lots of things has happened, be it happy or not, it's over.

I am really grateful that god has been so good to me. Though I am not faithful in terms of attending church. I know that god is always there to guide me. Through this year and a half, I have met up with many kind of friends that sometimes I am so lost. I was mislead once, but he guided me back. I am glad and grateful to have faithful friends like YANBING SEOKHOON ZHONGRI YIWEN TZEXIN ASTA KIATYIN DAEYEON PREBEN and now god given me KRACE. KRACE is a group of friends I have which I will elaborate when that night comes. I am definitely a blessed girl. Although I didn't like the days I had in my J1, I m blessed till now with even more friends~! I am really grateful. Recently special thanks to technology, I found one of my primary school close friend ------- EUNICE LEE. She is very very pretty now, till I could not recognised~! She is in SIM too~! Meeting her next week and hopefully I could pay a visit to the workplace of my another primary school friend. :D

Life have been very interesting for me recently. As said university life just started for me. I have been very very complacent and I will say today is my last day ---- I mean it. :D Meanwhile I have been taking up korean beginners' lesson and gotten my first certificate in August when I graduated from that class. I also signed up for the intermediate which believe will commence shortly after my teacher Ms Kim Young Mi comes back from Korea. She is a very amicable teacher and the whole class really likes her. Besides that I had also taken up 'BONAMANA' dance lessons~! I have completed it with pride.:D I will not sign up for any classes shortly until I have an income for my part-time. I have been meeting up with my modern dance JESKAR for several mini gatherings. I am so not surprised when they told me they are interested in SNSD's 'Run Devil Run' Dance. We even decided to dance together, with me as the coach of the dance, at Esther's place. Please practice girls~! I hope we really dance well so we could should a video of that~! I am looking forward~!

This 2 years, my life is decorated with experiences in Bangkok, before the riots, and Hong Kong before the monsoon rains. Also I terminated my work in Bakerzin after 1 year and 4 months and thanks to UNISTEEL International for taking me in as a trainee without complains and selflessly taught me so much about being humane in business~! It's definitely long stories for all. Haha~

Besides that, special thanks to my mother for allowing me to buy and eventually bought for me and also my cousin Chern Horng KorKor and Bai Ling Biao Sao for hunting it for me in Hong Kong, I have a new precious ----- my BLUE polaroid. After so long of waiting I finally owns 1. My cousys helped me, and got it at around SGD68 from Hong Kong inclusive of 1 packet of film, before inflation and the sudden craze of polaroid stormed into Singapore all of the sudden. They also bought additional 4 packets of films for me as my souvenir~ I have been treasuring it since August 10th~! Below is some of my recent pictures~! I know i m slightly a little fatter. Please bear with it!!

I am still new in terms of taking good polaroids, but I am definitely improving. keke. I had said so much in this post. Just want to mention something. Thanks for being around for me friends. I wouldn't be so strong if you guys are not around. If I have forgotten to name you above don't think that I forgotten you. In fact I really miss you guys a lot. I really thank you for participating in my life not forgetting my prescence. If you see this message I really want to say thank you so much for being in my life and I am grateful that I know you friend. If you need someone to talk to I will there for you because you was there for me before. :D I LOVE YOU MY FRIENDS. THANK YOU!

this is my 200th post!

2009-12-03T01:02:00.002+08:00

what m i busy with lately.

1) recently i m drained by all the trainings and teaching my new staffs. REALLY BUSY!
2) getting ready for x'mas promotions~
3) on diet - going to london weight management with my mother.
4) planning to buy the x'mas gift for my study group mates for gift exchange. I CANT WAIT TO SEE THEM~! :)
5) planning and realising the promise of yiwen and me for our end of year shopping!
6) JOINING SHOW'S FANCLUB~! (i made up my mind to sign up long ago, but dragged till now -.-'')
7) chasing after dramas.
8) buying x'mas gift for sim's gathering and bakerzin gathering.
9) getting the vaccination for h1n1 (i m going to bangkok with my family this coming jan 2010)

wow! dec is really short~! i mean this whole year is really short, of time. it's so late of the year already. i really need a breather to organise my things.

yiwen pls gimme a DATE soon :)

4e5 i really wish to meet up with you ppl this dec~!

see ya!

i have recovered.

2009-11-03T22:23:00.003+08:00

havent been posting for long,

this blog seem long abandoned.

in fact i almost forgotten the password to my blogger, later i realised its just the password for my email.

dear friends, how are all of you?

i just fell sick that day, i was so weak and tired of my job surroundings.

i have been creating loads of enthusiasm for this occupation. however when i collapse, that very moment i realised ------ the things i m doing is starting to repeat.

what do i mean but that?

though i m a 19-year-old, i felt very old. everyday i m meeting different people, but the job i m doing now is just not challenging enough. i m thinking to switch job already. i m yearning for a more challenging role in my life.

something my parents, relatives and friends will be proud of.

something i would be proud to say to others and i would proud of myself.

i want to dream big. i still want to be in service line, but which one?

i have a calling. yet i dont wanna disclose as much yet. just let me secure it first.

i admit at loads of time i m slow in reaction. this is my future. i hope that i could just soar fast enough to achieve it.

people i hanged around with. how are you?

yanbing how is your job like?

i really wish to meet you soon.

this year we will be celebrating our 8th year. i knew you in 2002 dec. this is 2009. 123! dont forget yup.

i really miss the days i spent with you working hard together!

i have posted some pics in facebook.

gonna rest now!

i miss my life.

2009-07-06T23:16:00.001+08:00

now i felt that my life is more balanced now. i can plan my time for household chores, i can have some time for more family. i can also spend some solid time talking to my friends.

however i m not very happy though.

i m currently at vivocity. life that is ever busy. we don't really have loads of time 'talking' or 'understanding' them. in fact i always felt that we are short of manpower. whenever we are eating and someone took over our station it seems that i 'can't get back' my station. things seem disorganised and i don't know when i can start learning how to close cashier and order stocks...

actually what i don't really like is that i don't know when i m going to learn what. everyday i m expecting myself to learn something as a team leader. however i don't understand why i can't perform that well as a server lately. perhaps i m still not sure of the orientation of most things now. i m still learning as a server. and i do hope that i could learn things faster.

i miss my life. i miss jurong point very much. but i m tired. i don't know when to go back. when i could wear nice clothes and have a leisure time with my friends. when?

wen wen has asked me why do i have to make myself so tired? but i also don't understand why i m so determined this time to work in such an tired environment. i really physically exhausted now.

when will i have a break?

when i learn all the things i m supposed to learn first bah.

i miss you too....

my first full-time job...

2009-07-04T01:48:00.004+08:00

1st of july. The day that marks my first full-time job. it is non other than my waitress job in Bakerzin. I was being transferred to vivocity for my 1st day. i aren't sure how long i m going to stay there. I m somehow certain that i will be there for good.

On my first day as usual i wasn't use to the environment. I thought that the place is busier than i thought. It is small but yet the crowd is really scary. i felt that the place is really cramp. i don't like my first day there, because i feel very lost and very scared. things got better as days past. today is already my 3rd day there and i feel more comfortable. the thing about vivocity is that, when it's busy, everyone don't stay at there station. when you key in cakes. you are expected to pick up your own cakes. today i m a little stunned too. today sales hit incentive!! $200 bucks. there is always a time that i m over busy and over free. aish. i really hope i can manage myself better. i m NOT HAPPY AND SATISFIED with my past days performance. it is very very lousy. i must really improve on my service.

today is a special day. 3 of my family members from jurong point came to look for me. JOANN came to work with me since 3 today. its such an coincidence~! today we were short of a person. so she came to our outlet to help out. happy sia~! how i wish everyday she could work with me. hais. YVONNE was next. she promised me she would be the first, unfortunately she was the second. cos JOANN was the first. haha. loon was the 3rd. a little shock but ya. he was the 3rd.

tired le..

this week no off-days. going to sleep le.

tata~!

there's nothing happy to blog about..

2009-06-14T16:57:00.003+08:00

since today is my off day, i shall blog for once. these days i wrote a lot of things in my diary. i have so much to consult. i felt that i m facing things of the real world these days. its really harsh. i feel so insecure.

lots of my colleagues are undergoing relationship problems. i don't know what is wrong with our outlet at bakerzin. literally my colleagues are undergoing a lot of problems. i m absorbing some of their problems as some of them would share with me. my way of letting out my stress would be as usual, either letting out by crying or write on a piece of paper and then vandalised it. i mean i dont mind they share their problems with me. cos i m their friends. but i dont understand why all of these problems are happening at the same time. sometimes i also wondered, m i not matured enough when i m facing all these problems. i need to be more sensible and mature. i became quieter these days. i m tired to talk about anything. my speech is always surrounding consolation of my colleagues. i think god is putting me through a test.

i m honoured that i m given the abilty to console people around me. i m glad that people around trust me so much. but i also really do hope that they could quickly pick themselves up and become happier. i m praying hard. i felt that i m turning to become more and more effortless.

i miss joann. i really miss her presence. she is not replying to my texts. i miss her so much.

i miss my school days. when those days i only for my school work to worry for.

now i felt that i have loads of problems that i dont wish to share with my parents. hais. they themselves gave me quite a lot of pressure as well.

should i or should i not sign a contract with bakerzin. i feels so vexed with this problem as well.

maybe i should find another full time job.

aish.

don't wanna talk already.

tomorrow going out with yiwen and felicia. tues with yanbing seok hoon and zhongri.

i m afraid i wont be in the correct mood. i need to adjust.

yup.

12th May 2009

2009-05-13T14:15:00.000+08:00

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO MY DEAREST LAOPO ANG YI WEN! =D STAY SWEET AND SMILE ON! SORRY THAT I CANT ACCOMPANY YOU TODAY DUE TO MY CURFEW.

12th May 2009. it marks the year anniversary of Sichuan earthquake that took millions of lives and destroyed millions of hope and family. my heart undergone the same kind of destiny yesterday. loads of things had happened SO SUDDENLLY.

first it was my mother. she was sicked for the past 2 weeks and she finally couldnt take it and took a long medical leave. i was shocked though to see such a weak state of her. i felt so heartbroken to see her so weak. but i felt helpless. i felt useless for not being able to cook for her. what i know how to do was to change bedsheets for her tidy up the place and also pick up her food and my respective aunts place. i felt so unfillial being her oldest daughter. i detest my incapability.

next was brenda. she is going to be transferred to paragon next week. with immediate effect. i was shocked and astonished to hear this because i was closer to her after my dearest joann, the other team leader, has left. we are never friends, but family. we are so close and yet we have to be torned apart. i dont understand why do the management team have to transfer the paragon team leader to our team and my brenda to paragon. i really do hope that she could be transferred back. i m going to miss her so dearly. in fact i cried yesterday when i learnt the news. she was my mental coach which often encourages me. but why her not others?!

third. lam spoke to me yesterday about me being too nervous and uptight when there is a "jam". and when that happens, i would tend to be rude to our new comers. i therefore that i could apologise to them for my wrong attitude as a senior staff.

fourth. i was a barista yesterday. i was glad that i dint jammed up my drinks. however i think i m not outstanding enough because i cant maintain my standard for my cappuccino and latte. i believe mocha as well. i always felt very busy yesterday. hais. i really feel very useless. not fast enough for anything.

fifth. was something rather personal between me and my dearest er jie joann. she was sad and guilty because of me and because of that i was guilty and sad as well. i dont wanna share with any one else yet till i calm down.

12th may. quite a sad experience i remembered.

here are my neos taken recently!

2009-03-18T22:43:00.001+08:00

it's march alrdy!

2009-03-18T21:56:00.002+08:00

today is already 18th of march.

i would say that a lot of things had happened in the past months. i would say that i m a changed person after loads of things had happened.

firstly i would like to apologise to my friends for not informing them about my latest news. thank you for being so supportive still. i m in the midst of learning how to be a successful barista in bakerzin. this is a really tiring job. but i m loving it cos i can learn so many things for service! this is my area of passion. but i m really sorry for neglecting you guys for so long. i know i put loads of focus when i m doing something i love and i really didnt plan for you guys.

recently i received feedback from friends and family, hoping that i could quit my job. i felt disappointed. i m in the midst of my learning i don't want to leave yet. not so soon. i feel that i would need a lot of support. because learning to be a good barista is not an easy task to handle. but i don't blame anyone for not supporting me because i m neglecting you guys too much. what i can promise you guys is i would put 3 days off for the week. mon, wed and sun. i would plan sometime you guys de. but pls give me some more time to learn barista well. after that i would have more time already. i scalded my hand recently. but i m ready for my challenge anytime when my hand heal.

i have decided 5 courses to take in university of ntu! i have also registered for temasek polytechnic. =D

hope that my study group have made their choices.

miss them so much....

hate this week.

2009-02-09T00:13:00.003+08:00

today i realised. i m not as strong as i thought. i m not as tough as i think. i need someone to rely on when i m sad too. but maybe i m too strong on my surface. that my family took it for granted.

i haven't been talking much to my sister lately. last few days she just did something i detest the most again to me. i was angered numbly. when i wanted to remind her not to repeat again she always says i nagged and slammed all more reminders down. i m at the peak of my disappointment, when my parents also felt that i m not generous enough to forgot her on her SMALL mistake. however to be honest if this is the first time, why wouldn't i just keep one eye close. the very simple reason is this situation has happened like umpteen times already. but what my sister will say is, "what's done can't be undone; what can i do?" with her attitude like that i always wanted to slap her hard on her face and tell her what she has done is wrong and she should not be so arrogant nor proud when answering me. in fact she finds whatever she had just done was perfectly no mistake. the err is on me being too petty. LOL~!

gracious! if one fine day i just used her handphone without telling her, how would she feel? what if she had told me not to use but i REPEATEDLY ignore what she said. then what's her point of telling me in the first place. that's exactly my point when i reminded her. perhaps to her all the above is just some sort of childish act. but to me some things has different meanings. she can't understand...

work at Bakerzin have not been as smooth-sailing as i thought it would have been. stress is empowering within me. recently when i worked with my team leader Raymond. i thought he has given me quite a hard push. perhaps due to his shy character some of the things he don't mention i would have to make my wild guesses. and usually i m corrected after Yiwen tells me. but well maybe like what Yiwen has told me, i would need to work longer with him so i could know him better. but that dude is leaving in April. for me? perhaps the end of march would be the date for me to leave. honestly speaking i don't bear to leave there. i have become more and more humane when i start working this year. but i m really in hope that i could just work in a environment full of joy, not stress. i always felt tired when i walk along the corridors of city hall. my heart is haunted with the pressure. i m not happy these days. really. but the people there overall is nice. DILEMMA~!

perhaps loads will say, just quit if the job if you dont like it. but i haven't learnt how to make even one simple americano. hmpf.

just can't be bothered about my emotions now.

yesterday i went back to pj! oh man! i miss my teachers and the uncle and aunties there! of course my cute little juniors! haha. i recieved one rose and thousand compliments yesterday! that's some things that lighten up my mood a little! happy! i m in for my clan ursa! they rock! the others ----- stone.

tata~!

a picture says a thousand words! here's many many thousand words!

2008-12-25T18:21:00.011+08:00

MY GRADUATION NIGHT~!

MACAU ZHUHAI GUANGZHOU

finally!

2008-12-25T04:36:00.000+08:00

hello my dear blog.

though things these days may not be as smooth sailing. i felt rather fortunate that what baobao jie said has came true. yes she said that 破财消灾. this became so true for my case.

recently i have been losing loads of my precious due to my carelessness. and also getting loads of scolding and also doing loads of 'wrong things'. but what good things i get for return is really unbelieveable.

i got my job! i got my favourite shorts! i got my best friends' (zr sh yb) understanding. i also got my favourite leopard print top. i got to watch fahrenheit's concert free having to most expensive ticket. i finally got into contact with my long lost friend.

these are some of the things i got in return. and i m grateful. of course that is definitely not going to be a valid reason for me to lose things. xP

this holiday will be a long one for me. i want to learn how to be a RESPONSIBLE MATURE and SENSIBLE adult. i m 18 already. i have a body of a mature adult. but sometimes my action don't show that i m want. even me myself can't tolerate myself sometimes. hais. that's why this is the most important new year resolution i have this year.

yesterday sim's family have a christmas gathering at godma and godpa's place. i really love the spirit of our family. its full of live passion love sharing and caring~! we really felt that time for us to gather is too short. hais. how come only have 11 hours for the gathering. i really look forward to sim's family next gathering! i suppose it will be our very lunar new year~! hurrays! new year is coming again! =D

dear study group. though we still meet up with each other rather often i felt that it is insufficient. perhaps i m too reliant on your guys during my study period that i felt really empty when my life is without you guys. let's meet more often. i really miss and love you guys loads. perhaps i almost lose you all before that made me treasure you guys even more than before. pls take care of your health. all of you! loves!

i will post my pics when i wake up later. very tired le. 4.36am le~!

tata~!

i'm back

2008-12-12T23:47:00.001+08:00

i m back yesterday actually. but i was too packed with things to do. sorry people that has called me. i m glad that bing ce and wen called me. called kor too. so i have talked to my 4 best friends~! =D i miss them. this trip actually i only manage to buy gifts for the 4 of them. ps to the rest ya~! cos this trip i dun really have the mood to shop. i hope my besties like the gifts i chose for them. i m madly in love with leopard prints!

sorry my dear wen wen for kupping your phone yesterday k? cos i was busy entertaining the relatives that came over to my place last night. XP!

today actually wanted to go for job interview de. but i forgotten my ic. so i tot i could go on mon. but ce says tody is the last day. by the time i go down. its gone! then i went looking for kor. in hope to visit him today. but the dude was too busy le. so went to hang around orchard with my cousin sera and sis. my cousin is looking for her pair of shoes to match her dress tml but later her mom called and said her sister wants to wear that dress tml. which means the dudette dont have a dress for tml event. poor her! so went around shopping for her dress. she looks rather sad. seriously speaking my dayi has a great biasness towards sera. hais. shant elaborate. so we went shopping. i treat my sis and her dinner, skipping my own. but i hope her mood is better.

later we managed to find a nice tube dress for tml's night! it look pretty formal and suitable for tml morn event!heng ah! my darl mei has also, by chance, saw a dress that is MORE appropriate for the latter. so she bought it with her. hahaha. everyone will be stunning tml. i look forward. congratulations to albert kor and bailing biao sao for your big day tml!

kor owes me an ice-cream with a cone from macdonalds. =D

sadded!

2008-12-06T03:04:00.002+08:00

sometimes i really wonder. whether i m really a mature normal eighteen-year-old. i m in china now. its a long and saddening day today. i was enjoying the shopping breeze and i was being picked-pocket. :( i lost my cell phone again. which means i lost all my friends contact number and also my secondary school teachers and junior college teachers contact number. ridulculous! i lost 2 cell phones in china within the same year. i find it so hard to convince myself that i m so careless still! wasteful.

i lost my will to shop after that. still feel very moody. but really angry with that person whom picked my phone. they also dun understand eng, picked also no use. furthermore it is going to spoil soon. forgot it le. cant contact with my friends le. really miss them~!

how are u zhongri?
how are u yanbing?
how are u seokhoon?

done buying most of my prom things...

2008-11-28T02:26:00.002+08:00

since after a's, almost everyday i have been to orchard to search for my prom stuffs. i m glad mine is almost done. so is xiao ce and korkor's.

I MISS YANBING!

i m glad that loads of my friends trust my taste and allow me to give them comments on their prom attire. my dress is not considered a secret. the whole of my study clique knows what dress i will be wearing. a little sad though. cos it wont be a surprise. but i do hope that the others will be surprise by each other. haha. ^^

i hope that that night will be a really unforgetable night. i hope all of us could be as stunning.

after prom i m going to china for holidays. really hope that by then i wont be jobless. cant really search for jobs now because of my china trip. aish. how i wish my china trip was earlier. so i can work immediately after that. hais. i do have a long shopping wishlist. but i do hope that i could save more before i spent. i do hope i save enough for my taiwan trip next year. hmmm.

i little stress now. but i miss my friends. i love my friends.

doing more packing tml. got to clear my desk and mess properly before i fly. otherwise i might be physically in china. but my heart is with all the tidying. hahaha. tata!

we are done with 'a' levels

2008-11-21T19:09:00.005+08:00

today is the official last day for 'a' levels!

congratulations to all peeps that has successfully pull through your toughest period.^^ it has been a torturing period since June. in fact i felt really amazing. i cant believe i finished 'a' levels already! but this feeling is really unbelievable. time really flies as said from the beginning. once i stepped into this system we realise that we are always chasing after time. i m glad that it's over too.

currently we, me bing zhongri and seokhoon, are hunting for jobs now. that aside. we are also in the midst of preparing for our prom night. i do look forward to that day though. i think that night will pass really fast. joey had her prom night at hilton hotel last wednesday, 19th nov. she mentioned that the ballroom is really small but she really had a great time. my sister was really gorgeous that night. i was rather happy that she liked the dress i picked for her the day before her prom. she looked really good in it. ^^ love her! hah.

today is the day yanbing peiwen ciauer natalie(my girlfriend!:)) bong yap andy and lewis fly to taiwan. i suppose they reached there already. missing them already. earlier in the morning we met at airport (my favourite place in s'pore) before their departure. PLEASE COME BACK SOON! apart from me and ce, bong yap and peiwen's mom came and send them off too. bong yap mom is really young and fashionable. she is so quiet! while peiwen's mom is very fierce.

after sending them off, me and ce head down to orchard road to buy her prom stuff. i got her a vintage number. i really think she look great in it. so pretty worhs! now i must settle her bag and necklace.^^ she will be one of the prettiest! hahahaha~! but hope she like the dress i chosen for her too.:)

for now are some pictures taken recently and today :)

tired~!

2008-11-08T19:23:00.002+08:00

i must really be strong.

i want to believe in my belief.

forever friends is possible not a myth.

true friends is present not past tense.

i m able to succeed in life and not hurting anyone anymore.

i m able to do well in the tourism industry!

i just need to have faith! ^^

start of something new.

2008-11-03T22:28:00.000+08:00

today marks the start of my 'a' levels. i felt numb actually. my heart is half-dead though. the sky remained overcast for me.

i m tired. very tired. seeing them happy is something i should be glad about. yet i felt a big titch of pain when i felt ignored. in the morning. i received the msg from kor saying he forgotten to bring his badge. i borrowed from yiwen and passed to him. in hope to speak to him before the exams. my hope was crashed when i saw him pull seokhoon away after i borrowed comb from her. yanbing was with them. i din talked to him, nor yanbing before the exams. i entered the merciless venue, when i felt really cold in my heart not due to the aircon, but my study group. we were in the same venue, but i dont feel they are near me at all. i saw him outside the venue. he righteously ignored me. i choose to believe he cant see me. but the pain robbed me hard. i didnt expect myself to be such a mood when i sitting for the exams. unexpectedly. i finished my paper 1 20 minutues before time. i had time to re-read my own essay. i wrote the essay on dreams; "How important are dreams?" after checking several times. i put down my pen and fastened the papers.

i looked at the clock ticked quietly. disappointedly i m thinking about them again. why do they feel so distant from me? as though i dont know them.

after paper 2. i met seokhoon. passing her a poster of wuzun i promise to give her a few days ago. my mood was rottened by paper 2. it was a tough paper i would say. but i tried my best. after that i met up with yiwen.

i wasnt very hungry though but i accompanied yiwen for lunch. she sensed that i was unhappy and tried to talk to me. we came to the about them. she initiated the topic and also initiated a change of topic. my mood was at the edge of the most saddening part. she mentioned about her secondary school best friends and her pae friends. i was rather oblivious. she tried to make me talk. but i barely say anything. perhaps she dont know, now i m sensitive to the word 很好很好的朋友. she dont know she had stepped on my weakest part now. it's not her fault. i chose not to explain because it is perfectly normal for people to mention about their best pals. in fact i envy her.

i went to the library with her. i distinctly know i cant focus. my brain was too packed for things. i know i should put all this aside. but i din choose to confront all this today. zhongri has done his best to torture me mentally. i brought all the encouragement card my study group made for me. i felt really great looking at those cards yesterday. that gave the verge to fight for today's exams. but what was written on the card feels different now.

initially. i thought i was able to study with yiwen. i couldnt. my mind was thinking fully about them. plus i little unhappy with what i encountered in the canteen. i request to yiwen that i go home to nap first. i was too drained both mentally and physically. sorry wen. i left you 2 again.

on my way to take bus home. i met them. it was a surprise to me though. cos i thought they left much earlier. i took the same bus with them. i smsed mommy on the bus telling her i m heading home to rest. kor was occupied with a call. well. i think he gets a little agitated over the paper though cos he spoke rather loudly. i was rather occupied with the checking of my dictionary for my vocab meanings. i got them all wrong. i was rather giddy cos i got a sit that is facing the opposite direction of where the bus is driving. bing cared about me on the bus. i told her i was feeling drowsy not sad. but she saw the loopholed through my eyes. but with my inisistent that i m fine. she din question me further. i bid byebye to her when she alighted.

i m stuck in a dilemma. i always love studying with my study group. but i dont bear to throw yiwen aside. but i always yiwen as my best pal for leisure. we had similar ideals for fashion and food. but i felt that i cant stop myself from being distracted. once again its not her fault. she also urged me to study with my study group and leave her with kenneth. but i promised her i wont leave her till after a's.

my study group...i might not be able to study with you all anymore. i really wished for it. hope for it.

i miss u all~!

2008-11-02T12:28:00.000+08:00

tommorrow is the day. well i didnt expect to not with my study group for this period. this is my greatest regret i have left for this school.

it has been my longest 45 days.

to xiao ce: all the best for the coming exams. pls have more confidence in yourself and trust that you can do it! have faith in yourself. please take care of yourself.

to yanbing: my dearest jie. i haven seen you for so long le. how are you? jia you for the coming exams! chiong all the way. we have a long vacation ahead. take care of your health too. sleep early.

to zhongri: kor though you might not be able to read this message, i still wish you can stay strong and strive through this period. dont be scare. the ability to score is evident by us. dont say you cant because the thing is that you can.

to yiwen: we are still very good shopping partners. but we are certainly not very good study buddies. because we always talk. lols. but you can focus recently! happy for you. nevertheless. jia you for the coming exams. dont scare okay. its just a ' paper'. so let's brave it together! ^^

i m going off now. needa do some last min chionging.

bye to all!

2 more days.

2008-11-01T02:27:00.000+08:00

cindy! halos!

perhaps people begin to think about how m i now. nervous with exams? stressed up by results? depressed by parents' scolding? tormented by friends' cold shoulder? presurized by my outstanding sister's eq? disappointed with my own wrongdoings?

i m determined to conquered all these.

all have confronted me at the same time though, i will not give up. i have my new set of principles i wish to follow tightly with. perhaps people may think i m silly to think about all these now as these crucial period is my examination preparation period. i felt strongly that if i dont have the right set of values, the wrong set of philosophy, i will eventually end up as a loser. i thought through a lot these days. i m sure i have caused a lot inconvinence to many. but how to make all these 'already inconvinent' spent worthwhile on me, that's to stay strong and face the music.

yiwen is correct today. i have a super obstinate behaviour. although sometimes i promise to change but nothing came out. i would just repeat the same mistake repeatedly. so what's the point of telling me. she will still constantly tell me what's wrong that's because she knows that i m a absent-minded person that always need constant reminders. but others might not have this strength to and guess what, i finally agree.

i decide not to be a coward and keep running. zhongri may be right. though i m someone whom constantly says how much i treasure my friends, i dont show it. why? this is because i have changed. i was someone who really deeply believe in forever friends and i still do. i remembered when i was depressed during april, after i got back my common test results. i wanted a dropout. i wanted to escape. i was so stressed to the extent i want to bid goodbye. but he was the one that spurred me on. he reprimanded me for being so abrupt. he said i was too silly to give up after 1 yr and a half effort. i still have the good 5 months to fight. why should i give up. besides saying that he introduced me the first song : "No Secret - I'll remember you" the song was from post orientation 1 video. it has such a deafening effect that it eradicated my idea of leaving school. but what did i do when he needs me during the prelim examination period? what did i do when he knocked onto the table in the library? what did i do when i feel awkward and dont dare to face him when i did something wrong?

the answer is disappointedly; i was resting at home after my 1 week diahorrea without explaining to him; i laughed; i blocked him in MSN. what m i doing? i guessed i shocked him as well. so do i deserved his distrust? why not?

nevertheless, i dont feel like quitting being his friend. it is a blessed to have such a friend. that's why i m responsible to such for the results why he cannot forgive me slowing earn back my trust.

i cant depend on others reminders everytime. i will shoo them away. in fact the whole of my study group inclusive of seokhoon, whom is super tolerant on me, and yanbing, whom still shows me support, had already gave me their limit and i m super grateful. these days i must also thank yiwen for being with me. and also zhongri, who still try to play the 'bad guy'. i want to thank all of you letting me know the importance of growing up. I MISS MY STUDY GROUP! and i m determined to get them back.

after that comes my parents. they are more demanding now i understand. that's also because i m growing up i m aware. i m expected of about lots of things. especially health and wealth management. i love my mom. but sometimes i really felt that she could be kinder with her words with all of us. she tends to be a machine i agree. she work in and out and allow us to stay in comfy. she is the best mother in the world. ^^ sometimes i really hope that she could dont throw her status as our mother and order us to do things. she can tell us nicely though. she is still loving enough. mommy pls trust us and put us at home next year if your want to go abroad with papa okay? we are 16s and 18s. can handle our life for the few days le. ^^ dont put us at da jiu mu's place pls.

my sister's issue is more or less settled.

now i m set for a level's.

mdm toh was right. in fact a lot of our teachers told us before. a level's is the most tormenting period. i feel exhausted easily recently. i m still pressing on till the last minute though i am fully aware that i wont get the best results, but i wont get the lousiest. jia you cindy!

oh my, it 2.27am le.

got to get some sleep le. i m meeting yiwen tml morning.

goodnight!

where are my energy?

2008-10-29T23:26:00.000+08:00

what is real? what is virtual? what's true? what's false? what's black? what's white?

i cant differentiate now. the sky seems to be dark every day. stress are streaming in in all directions. i m swimming against the current, fighting for my chance to survive...

i miss them. to define actually i m a little more greedy. i have 4 best friends. those that no matter what i do there are still so important to me. they are yanbing yiwen seokhoon and zhongri. all of them are just so important to me. god is kind. he gave me for angels.

but i m the devil. i hurt my friends. at least 3.

studies are so important.

4 days to 'a's!

jiayou my precious!

i (nearly) lost my circle of friends...or have i?

2008-10-19T22:19:00.000+08:00

yes i feel much better these 2 days after much thinking.

i realise things.

1. i m really not mature enough for my age. there are too many times that my family and friends have to worry for me, and that's irritating.
2. i haven't been fair to people around me.
3. i haven't been efficient in learning.
4. i dont have much time left.
5. if they are my real friends, we will quarrel, but we are still friends!

in this world when nobody is perfect but yet we can find each other as friends, classmates, schoolmates; and have the opportunity to develop relationship, it's fate. we are fortunate enough as god is always fair to people. we shall complain lesser, grumble lesser, protest lesser; because there is a reason for everything.

dont be complacent with anything you have, as if you dont treasure it, it will be taken back by god. try to have faith in the things you do. it is not that there is no such thing as a perfect friendship. it just that nobody believes there is, so they dont see any. i see that i will have, so i WILL DEFINITELY have. if i let chance slip off delibrately again, i dont deserve the 3rd chance.

what done cant be undone; what bygones are bygones; what's more important is i dont repeat my fault again. if not more will get hurt. not just them. me myself will be hurt deeper and longer.

here are some pictures

2008-10-18T13:57:00.003+08:00

05102008 (@ little guilin after lunch)

feeling the same...

2008-10-18T13:42:00.001+08:00

it is really very saddening when things is not the same as before. when misunderstanding climb so high...

oh god. i do really miss him so much.

i m actually lost and confuse. yet i have to feign ignorance about things i know.

blocking him is my fault i m aware. but do you know how much i m hurt when i m aware that i m not forgiven. you are acting as though you had. if you do not want to sit with me, why dont you tell me. i m even more hurt when i was named as a hypocrite by you. you are not true to me anymore. i know you like someone else. even so why must you insist of not believing that i like you.

you were the one that pulled me up from the valley and brought me to a higher summit. now you pushed me down again. why?

its painful i bet you dont know. its more painful than you thought. you must be laughing hard at me now. you must have been thinking that its you yourself that bring yourself to this sorrowful state. you must be thinking again that cindy is trying to get people to pity her.

if i m this kind of person to you that is a heavy enough punishment. i m oblivious to things now. but i shall not make more people worry for me.

my motive for telling you i like is not to make you mock at me, nor wanting to feel the same way for me. in fact i know it's impossible. i just want to tell you why i felt awkward at times. that's all.

yupps that's all for today.

dramatic moment

2008-10-17T14:32:00.001+08:00

everything has changed overnight.

sounds dramatic?

i am not sure either. i didnt know that i m such a person till i was told. from the reaction to the blocking. i m not sure that whatever i did was correct. i only know that the intention was not meant to hurt anyone. Unfortunately, i did.

i seem to lost my best friend forever. he is gone for good. naming me as his foe, seem to tell me that he is terminating our friendship. i believe i m to be blamed again for making awkward situations for him, and also sacrifices my friends whom are worried for both of us. things turned out to be worse than i have thought. it is 16 days to A levels. amen! but my life is in such a sorrowful plight now. i didnt want to tell anyone how i feel now. because to him sharing something private like this is a sin.

yes. i m coward he might name. i run away from things. but if i dont he will get hurt too. it's such a joke. he is not trusting me anymore for i dont have enough strength to support my promises to him. he gave me a devastating blow.

i apologise to my friends. especially seok hoon and yanbing. sorry for making you girls worry. i m fine. but i wont make you all worry anymore.

this incident train me to be stronger and more mature in a lot of ways.

good bye my friends.

COUNTDOWN~!

2008-10-15T14:48:00.000+08:00

i should be sleeping now but nevertheless i still feel like blogging.

it's the last 19 days before the final battle.

i m tired...

i m striving...

i m stressed...

i m optimistic though...

i still felt blessed in many ways. instead of fearing 'a' levels, i m embracing it bravely and i m proud of myself. i told huiting today, " i may not get the best results with my ability now, but at least with my confidence and focus now, i m definitely not going to get the lousiest one!" i want to prove that i can really do it.

i am aiming high. straight 'B's and i hope i can get it! i m not going to give up though i feel helpless at times. i m just going to stay strong and brisked through my darkest days!

i want to say words of encouragements to my best friends!

to zhongri:
thanks for being such a tolerant friend. though we still see each other everyday and we are still good friends, i clearly know i m no longer your confide. However i m truly glad you found a better candidate than me, who is seokhoon. i felt that you have become a more chirpy person. stay happy and healthy. do you know that your smile is very influential. in fact it is more infactious than your laughter. so smile more. plus you are not cute, you are just good looking. JIAYOU FOR OUR COMING 'A's!

to seokhoon:
ce! thanks so much for being there when i need you. besides lin zhong, you are the second friend i know that has the best temper~! apart from scolding me when i do things wrongly, you always tell me in such a nice way! <3<3>

to yanbing:
i really treasure our friendship as this is our 6th year being school mates! taiwan, show, stage will always be around, but once our 'a' levels is gone, they are gone forvever. No matter how tired you are, remember you have us to rely on. though i m not a very superior friend of yours, but hope you still can get comfort whenever you need from me. i wont be selfish. thanks for trying to understand or learn about me. it is surely a pleasant experience to be your friend for so long. Let's work towards our goal of getting most improved student award next year.

too tired le. tml still have listens.

tata~!

i m a lot better...

2008-10-09T17:53:00.000+08:00

who is there when i m in despair?

who is there whenever i throw tantrums?

who is the light that gave me direction whenever i m lost?

who is the one that will be worried about me when i m sulking?

needless to say. it is my dearest daughter and jiejie. recently i dont know what wrong with myself. i have been sulking these days. so much so that i always picked up flaw on my friends. i know i must been insane. who in the right frame of mine will be picking on her friend when she is perfectly fine without problems in terms of family, or in terms of their academic. i must admit i m a person that is super impatient. i dont really like myself either. BUT that is definitely NOT an excuse for me to improve as a person.

no one in this world is perfect. but it is definitely important for me to find my balance. last week or the week. i had a really bad quarrel with my sister over something i cant really remember. it was so heated. i was really in a foul mood that day. she kept me thinking what kind of person i really are. Selfish? Impatient? Irresponsible? Rude? Late-coming? i really manage to convince me that i have all of what she said. she also mentioned that i will lose my friends with such attitude. that really slapped me hard on my face. my friends is so important to me now. so much so that i think they are of equal importance to my family. they are my great support. losing them would be such a blow to me. but yet i dont dare to rebute anything. because whatever my sister says seem to come true eventually.

but she might not know something. i m inferior, low self-esteemed, sensitive and, now, depressed. never mind of what she say. cos i realise there after what she say i started to cold war with kor. that day after i quarrel with joey before our sisl. it somehow reinforce what she said to me. that's when i realise i m really very what she said. i become very paranoid. kept thinking that my friends are going to leave me. it made me so depressed. and unhappy. i have been sulking really too much these day. i seem to lost my sense of laughter. what got worse was that i m not so close to kor anymore. i dont call him at night anymore. he dont sms me after school to ask me where i m now. he dont reply my message. he dont laugh at my jokes. he dont need my accompany le. he dont laugh at my jokes. he dont need my encouragements le. he dont talk to me every now and then. he is not my close friend now even though i still regard him as one. and i know it is not his fault. i drove him away. i get insomnia these days. it seem very definite that calling him become a routine that i tend to lose my sleep. he is really an important friend for me. and i really know its my bad. i truly apologise to my impulse.

its 24 days to a levels.

really hope our friendship would remain strong.

i need to work harder.

i pray for my friends too.

JIA YOU PEEPS.

sorry to zhongri. yanbing. seokhoon and farveen.

thank you to zhongri yanbing seokhoon and farveen too.

a little sadded...

2008-10-01T18:22:00.000+08:00

如果一切可以从来就好了。如果你问我：“ 你这一生有没有遗憾？” 我的答案必定是有。：(

来到了这所学校，我的感触良多。。。

近几天的心情很不晴朗，很沉重，快窒息了。最近发生太多事情了，好烦哦！我差一点失去一个我最重视；最珍惜的朋友。他差一点永远的离开我了。我承认我是一个十分鲁莽的男人婆，很多时候做事都不经大脑的。我虽然已经18岁了，却如此不成熟，让我担心不已。怎么办？我的个性太讨人厌了！自卑！我真的得好好反省反省。真得很佩服那些能忍受我的傲慢的人。不幸的是我懂得太晚了，已经伤害了很多我挚爱的朋友，甚至家人。我怎么越变越不成熟呢？

我一定要改变！我真得不能那么讨人厌。凡事要三思而行。

成绩啊，成绩~！

congrats to cousin annie and cousin-in-law craigven!

2008-09-24T06:48:00.000+08:00

today is the big day of my cousin annie sim. she is so gorgeous today!

after about 7 years of relationship she is finally married today. i was perhaps too excited today that i woke up several times last night. joke. m i just too nervous or what? then i finally woke up at 6 today to put on my lenses. i really had a hard time wearing it. then i bathe(because i perspire last night). i woke my parents up at about 6.30am. after that i put on some light make-up. then i was still pretty flicker-minded of whether to wear a tighter long dress or a shorter loose dress. and i think i REGRET!

the reason will be elaborated later. our whole family rushed to annie's place at 7.25am. as we were told that the door will be locked from 7.30am onwards. when we reached there, the bride is still not ready. i saw the 'jiemei' preparing the reward for the groom and the 'brothers'. i sniggered. then i sneaked a peek at the bride. she is really an angel. no wonder people says that you will be the prettiest on your wedding day. hah! she is! i took picture with her!

then we hear the honk! the groom is 15 minutes early today! joke. the bride have not put on her wedding gown yet! lols. we halted the groom for a while and got the bride ready. the 'regretting' part is coming. er jiu mu asked me why arent i dress in white. i should join the 'jiemei'. 原来没有人知道我今天不用上学。 JOKE! i was invited to join bullying the brothers, but since i wasn't brief nor informed earlier, i was not mentally prepared. it was really funny to see the guys being 'punished', since it was the first time i was witnessing. but the price is really a little to less. lols. then the procedures occur and i was asked to follow the 'jiemeis' last minutely, because bailing drew out last minute as albert korkor needs her to help with the domestic buffet later in the morning. i become a last minute 'jiemei', but i seem like an extra, because of my attire! -.-"

i followed the bride and the groom for the photoshoot. i did shadowing for the bride, groom and the bridesmaid. i seem to be very busy. lols. too needed for the event~! dun mention it annie jiejie! hah~!

after a long day and after tea ceremony and lunch break, we went back to annie's place for tea ceremony. i was grateful that they did give me some 'jiemei' angbao after that. that was unexpected! hah~!

shall continue blogging tml. i m preparing for the night~!

tata now~!

mixed feelings...

2008-09-21T16:28:00.000+08:00

i pulled a long face at farveen this morning. i'm sorry.

i wasn't very okay in the morning. something bad happened last night. i was struck by my worse nightmare. i was too depressed that i had a hard time catching some sleep last night. shall not elaborate it.

the long-awaited opportunity of working with 8th council again happened today at unity secondary. we had a short and sweet experience today. though everything is kind of last minute but i think we did a fine job! being rated as part of the student council today i felt proud. ^^

i think i love natalie la. she made me so high today. i m so sure if she is my friend forever i will be blessed with laughter till the end of time. her parents are so fortunate. we did the sharing session for the orientation part and though i didn't prepare much, i was glad that i manage to refrain myself from having stage fright! plus with natalie around, though we had a really shy crowd they are SLIGHTLY (take the literal meaning) responsive. -.-" but i met a few potential leaders. ^^ go unity~! we ended at about 12 and then we set for lunch. ^^ where we were discussing whether to go k box to sing or play mahjiong or shopping with the remainders. i left earlier to collect my lenses.

after lunch i was looking forward to collect my contact lenses. i was kind of nervous today. i tried on my first pair of contact lenses. it is so scary! the wearing process took me like 15-30mins, and facing the fury sister whom had waited for me for about 1 hour, it just worsen the count. and finally it was up and i felt kind of awkward. perhaps i got too used with wearing my spectacles. yup. the feeling of wearing something on your iris is new!

after that i chiong home to bath and met up with yanbing, where they come to a conclusion of going to lewis house for mahjiong session. i was left with $5. i thought they weren't playing money, so i felt safe. but later when they say they are, i told them i must credit if i lose. and thanks to natalie's good luck. i won the game, securing my dinner. hah. but we didnt finish the 4 winds because i have to leave earlier. btw those playing were andy bongyap yanbing and me.

so we head for dinner after the games when i confirmed that sanjiumu is coming over to my place. i continued playing when i reach home where i won too. thanks people. i can finally but my $20 dress. and as promise if i win big next time i will treat. ^^

need to rest le. meeting joan in the morning for breakfast.

nights~!

today is not a good day...

2008-09-20T14:18:00.000+08:00

today is not exactly the best day of my life though it is a holiday for those whom ended early yesterday. it is in fact my worst day thus far.

today is actually the day i m going out with yiwen. which the initial plan was to go out on sat. however sat LAST MIN need to go collect my contact lenses. kns cannot meet with her. so i request for a swap with her friend she is dating on friday. so today, which i only intend to attend the council meeting on the briefing on tml's cip, till 11am was cancelled suddenly. it was about 9 plus when i already bathed. i was told to do some household chores before leaving. seriously speaking i was a little relieved when i was told the briefing is cancelled. cause the initial plan can proceed. so i din call yiwen as yet(i promise to call her at 11am to confirm i m going), as i m not done with my household chores. at 10.25am, yangyi suddenly ranged me and told me the plan is on. i was taken aback. as attending this briefing is my obligation and my responsibility. some more is for my 8th council <3!> told me the whole trial is from 1pm to 3pm. i SO knew what is going to happen next.

i called yiwen.

and as expected. she will be not happy as well. because it is my bad for changing days with her and inconvenient her. i was totally moody after that. our initial plan was to have a good lunch. there after we'll go shopping for my dress and if i have money left we will watch our movie --- hana yori dango FINAL. all gone and i had pissed a friend.

after that i went for the meeting of course. and i was so angry with myself. because while waiting for zhongri to go to school together. i went to lot 1 and you know how much i splurge in that short 40 minutes wait without proper lunch and shopping of any clothes? $11.85. in my opinion, its a lot when you are spending on 'nothing'. i m so not in the mood today.

as usual i bought a handphone accessary due to my mood.

i saved $90 for the past 3 weeks. and i already spent $73.65 when i have not buy my dress. guess what tml i must still pay the balance of my contact lenses. it'll be $19.30. -.-"

today during the trial games, happened something not very nice too. hope everything will be fine tml. it's with my idol --- 8th council. i m a little scared but never mind. 车到山前必有路船到桥头自然直。i hope i will have the best memories with them.

got to rest le.

IM SORRY YIWEN!
and to zhongri dun feel drifted from us. you are always with us de. and we'll be there for you if you need us in anyway. i hope you feel the same too.

tata~!

i bought my lenses!

2008-09-19T15:39:00.000+08:00

hurrays! i bought my contact lenses liao le.

today actually quite emo de. its because of 3 things.

firstly i noe my chemistry paper 1 "bluang" already.

secondly i went all the way to dhouby ghaut ALONE to collect my watch and its STILL spoiled. so the person refunded me. that watch is irreplaceable because its bought by my clique. but nevertheless i was refunded.

thirdly. i learnt about the consultation fee i need to pay for first timer to buy contact lenses. which is no longer my problem now~! i bought my lenses le.

i had a free consultation and a cheaper contact lenses that i thought which can last me for 1 and a half months~! hurrays man. my mom also approve to let me buy colored contact lenses during grad night!

great man. i wanna mahjiong soon. hands itchy. after this few days of break i m going to study again!

CINDY JIAYOU!

Prelims is going to be over...so fast!

2008-09-17T14:14:00.000+08:00

today is my second last day having paper le. i m actuallyu quite happy that i could at least write something for econs essays! really glad. but i really regretted writing question 5 last. cos i think i can write more for that question actually aish!

never mind.

today's chem paper one was managable. i hope i can really score well this time.

studied with preben yanbing and zhongri today. ce joined after that and "disjoined" after that. lols. kor said something rather hurting today. i was stunned. never mind. over le anyways.

feel like going out for a break. but the break could only be fully enjoyed after the exams.

by that i meant my 'a' levels.

cant wait!

by that i mean my holidays and job opportunity after that. haha!

hope that those who have their bio paper tml could do their best.

JIA YOU KORKOR PREBEN AND JULIAT!

tata~!

diarrhea day!

2008-09-12T11:45:00.000+08:00

cant remember exactly how many times i went to the loo. but it's torturous~!

it has been a long week for me. because i had diarrhea for too many days.

hais.

guess what?

i m having my prelims now. this is such a long period to endure.

i was quite consoled with the fact that i find the recent papers managable. but who knows what result will pop out.

i went for a jab today, in hope to end the tormenting hoax that had played on me.

my tummy is filled with air.

hope i could eat solid food soon. i have been eating plain porridge these days. it is not food. i want to eat a lot of things after i recover.

and chilli.

need to rest now.

physically too drained.

THANKS TO THOSE WHOM HAD SHOWN THEIR CONCERN!
(zhongri yanbing seokhoon and farveen)

end of GP prelims.

2008-09-09T06:22:00.000+08:00

today marks the beginning of my prelims. it is also the end of my general paper. as usual, i cant finish my application question.

but nevertheless i felt relieved after the papers. hope i won't fail this paper.

i was among the batch we enjoyed the privilege of the air-conditioned hall. it was great. 陈老师is back! she is one of my examiners.

i wrote question 8 for essay and coincidentally huang xiao ce also. haha.

hope we score well. i would say that paper 1 this time has very tricky questions.

we shall see.

tml is math paper 2. i spent most of my time preparing for math. i hope it will not disappoint me. please show some improvements.

here comes prelims~!

2008-09-08T13:12:00.000+08:00

here comes prelims.

it is sort of sad because prelims serves as a reminder that school term is ending soon.

though i always felt my preparations are never sufficient. but i don't want that to be my excuse anymore. i want to brace myself with whatever i can.

the war is going to begin.

i must armoured myself, with whatever i have for now.

it might not be a great success but it is definitely not going to be an awful defeat.

confidence come within myself. for now i garner all my luck and wishes for the toughest period of my life. JIA YOU CINDY!

just do your best and don't let anyone down.

JIA YOU PEEPS(ZYSF)!

sick

2008-09-08T04:06:00.000+08:00

i m weary. suddenly...

it seem like tonnes of responsibilty had sat on me simultaneously. though it is prelims. i failed to feel the intensity.

why?

i m puzzled.

i cant sit still. i cant stand still. i cant eat properly. i cant even sleep well.

guess what. i was sick yesterday. AGAIN.

that's the key word.

i vomitted twice.

i lost my appetite since then. i m a little nervous about my results. but i felt a little hopeless. gosh.

what's wrong with me? what's wrong with cindy chua. whenever she feels like doing something right. she felt hindered. in terms of her mental ability.

i felt weak. physically and mentally.

study again.

during my 2 hours break.

2008-09-05T08:00:00.000+08:00

well i was honoured to be 1st to be named in Rehka previous post which is like thousand years ago. lols. decided to do the quiz though. haha.

1. The person who last tag you is: Valerie <3>

2. Your relationship with him/her is:friend! ex-netball mate (i only went for 2 practices! =x)

3. Your five impression of him/her:- she is soft-spoken
- she is tall
- she is caring
- she is talented(she plays canon in d very well ahaha and she also write songs)
-she is sweet!

4. The most memorable thing he/she had done for you: she gave me a birthday card way before my birthday!

5. The most memorable thing he/she had said to you: "just call me when you need me okay!"

6.If he/she become your lover, you will : if she is a he, i m blessed! =))

7. If he/she become your lover, thing he/she has to improve on will be: height!!!

8. If he/she become your enemy, you will: i will be too sad to do anything!

9. If he/she become your enemy, the reason will be: i neglected her?! (she really very nice la. if she regard me as a enemy, it would be a tragedy)

10. The most desireD thing you want to do for him/her now is: give her loads of encouragements whenever i can, belief and strength. thou we werent very very close! hope our friendship could grow stronger!

11. Your overall impression of him/her is: super sweet and nice person!

12. How you think people around you will feel about you?: some may feel i m unfriendly and also very very loud person.

13. The characters you love of yourself are: i have the ability to care for ppl. (thou some may not appreciate)

14. On the contrary, the characters you hate yourself are: STM! think too much sometimes.

15. The most ideal person you want to be is: natalie lio! (i think she will be surprise but her cheerful dispostion is always brightening my day!)

16. For people that care and like you, say something to them: i really thank god for 'giving' them to me. THANK YOU FOR BEING ABLE TO TOLERATE ME AS A FRIEND!

17. Pass this quiz to 10 persons that you wished to know how they feel about you:

Zhongri
Yanbing
SeokHoon
Farveen
Yiwen
Preben
JOAN
Natalie
Kegan
Zhixiang

18. Who is no.6 having relationship with? (Preben) his books maybe

19. Is no.9 a male or female? (Kegan) Male.

20. If no.7 and 10 are together, will it be a good thing? (JOAN, ZX) they will still splash water on each other i guess.

21. What is no.2 studying about? (yanbing) She's in JC studying the combination of Maths Chem Physics as H2 and Econs H1

22. When was the last time you had a chat with no.3? (Seok Hoon) Today after school ((=

23. What kind of music band does no.8 like? (Natalie) Should be pop music

24. Does no.1 have any siblings? (Zhongri) Yup. A younger brother.

25. Will you woo no.3? (Seok Hoon) Wont. she is a girl.

26. How about no.7? (JOAN) she is another girl. -.-"

27. Is no.4 single? (Farveen) Yup.

28. What is the surname of no.5? (Yiwen) ANG.

29. What 's the hobby of no.4? (Farveen) hugging ppl? i think she has a hugging club. =x

30. Does no.5 and 9 get along well? (yiwen and kegan) i doubt they know each other. lol.

31. Where is no.2 studying at? (Yanbing) PJC. now. =]

32. Talk something casually about no.1: (Zhongri) KORKOR. talented. handsome. ((=

33. Have you tried developing feelings for no.8? (Natalie) She is my girlfriend today. Oops!

34. Where does no.9 live at? (Kegan) jurong west. =]

35. What colour does no.10 like? (Zhixiang) RED.

36. Are no.5 and 1 best friends? (Yiwen and Zhongri) both Taurus. should be able to ba.

37. Does no.7 like no.2? (JOAN and Yanbing) were classmates. didnt ask her b4. but should be yes! haha

38. How do you get to know no.2? (Yanbing) when we were sec 1. outside the sch bookshop. we had the same christain name :Cindy! haha~!

39. Does no.1 have any pets? (Zhongri) Nope. is neopets considered?

40. Is no.7 the sexiest person in the world? (JOAN) definitely! she has the sexiest character! lols.

41. What do you think no. 10 is doing right now? (zhixiang) should be mugging hard for prelims in school ba! haa. JIAYOU!

yup done! within my break~! can go watch wizard of the waverly place le hahah!

not bad~!

2008-09-03T19:37:00.000+08:00

Kor GET WELL SOON PLS!

kor had a really bad dislocation yesterday after playing volleyball. i was so worried. witnessing the process. witnessing his tears. i almost died. i must admit i m really timid. but this friend is really important to me! it is torturous to see him injured. i know the pain is definitely unbearable.

anyway. hope he recover soon soon soon!

today yanbing came over to my place to study. i m glad i finally gain confidence for complex numbers and vectors and planes! its like finally~! glad. really glad. i cant believe i can complete the revision ws so fast and i can do them all myself. felt really consoled...

mei mei finished her first 'n' levels paper today. heard that she is rather confident about the paper and i m happy for her. MEIMEI JIA YOU!!

though i know she might not read this post i still hope to convey this wish to her. just try your very best meimei! the whole family is behind you.

today also talked to yanbing regarding the council taiwan trip. felt really excited. really hope that it will be a true success. it's the 8th! hahaha. my idol. if most could go i will be like so happy can. hope the trip will be cheap enough. i wanna go with them. hope to discuss with the 'organising committee soon~!

tml mei mei got the paper that she jitters the most. hope she can calm herself down and do well. MEIMEI SCORE YOUR BEST! I HAVE FAITH IN YOU!

i guess i should turn in le~! tml is econs day~! finally i can start on my econs policies! hahaha~!

tata~!

62 days to 'A's

2008-09-01T19:26:00.000+08:00

i didnt know that 62 is such an depressing number.

feeling lousy recently. hafen been blogging for so long. so decided to blog abit here.

1st and foremost, HAPPY TEACHERS' DAY for my beloved teachers. from pri to sec and the current JCs. hope that all teachers will be of their best of health and MOOD these days.

then let me start my post from yesterday's happenings.

yesterday, jerald came over to my place to study. actually quite happy. cos really very long din see him. he is still very cute and cool la. hahaha. mr gentleman i would still say. he came quite early. in fact earlier than expected time. yanbing was sick yesterday. sadded. then we went to sunset way foodfare for breakfast. and then head to my place and mug. the sad part of yesterday story is that my mom is a very traditional woman. my father wasnt at home. my mom was working. she felt insecure when there is guy friends around. anyways after that i invited ce over. cos she dun haf tution ytd! haha. kor came too. felt better after understanding that he wasnt mad with me on fri. great~!

today kor came over alone. ce got tution so din come. jerald had something on. jie din come as well. so we studied today. kor told me he got lost while he made his way to my place~! haha. but thank you korkor for coming over~! really appreciated. he is my nicest korkor la~! he is always there when i m in need or too stress! or it is always 'just nice' he is there. haha. thanks a mil kor. thou i noe you might not get to read my blog.

anyway. i just finish packing my messy room. great tml got a clear table to do work after i m back from school. i hope there is maths teacher tml in school. got several question that i wish to consult teacher. kor says he will reach school at normal time. i think, i mean i will try to reach around that time too. but i m so sure i m going to be more tired than him. cos it is 4.17am now.

yupps. i hope all my friends can cope with their stress now. it's official 61 days to 'A's after that is 9 months of sweetest.

JIA YOU ZHONGRI!
JIA YOU XIAO CE!
JIA YOU YANBING!
JIA YOU FARVEEN!
JIA YOU PREBEN!
JIA YOU FELICIA!
JIA YOU YIWEN!
JIA YOU OPPA!
JIA YOU SABRINA!
JIA YOU NATALIE!

and also jia you to myself!!!

tata~!

overjoy!

2008-07-03T14:20:00.000+08:00

i have so many things to blog about yet i have so little time. never mind! i would have more time tml night. hah!

mid-years are over. but i still felt burden. i was sick since last friday. when my throat signalled with a deep pain. i m a person that dun feel sick so easily. but i m so lucky to haf it on friday night. it has derailed my study plan and ruined my hope for chemistry totally. sad. but i must thank LIM ZHONG RI and WONG SEOK HOON and HER WHOLE FAMILY how i wished that you guys are really also my relatives! thanks a mil~! i love you all.

that aside first. today i went back to school to help kor film the council video. i m still a big fan of the 8th student council. oh my~ i m certainly going to cry they step down. today i woke up early to head to school with farveen. i had an enjoyable time spent with council. i love them simply and i really cant wait to see the final product. korkor jiayou!i m waiting! hahah. emotions aside. if i m able to go to last year. i m definitely going to be a councilior. love the 8th so much so much!

GO 8TH!

i m so exhausted now. tata~!

leaving for china soon!

2008-05-31T14:55:00.000+08:00

leaving for china in less than 8 hours time i really hope that it would be a memorable one!

actually i m starting to miss my family and my clique! ahhhs. will u guys miss me?

hehe!

anyway. i m grateful that my juliat laopo bought me a series of stitch presents! she even made me a card with the pic below:

cute right! so creative. i really love it! so much of her effort! thank you!

take care everyone i will be back soon! =)

what a birthday.

2008-05-24T16:51:00.000+08:00

time flies. and i m having blues on my very birthday. it doesnt feel like a celebration. it felt like some sort of torment instead. i cant explain this feeling. it is just known as a uncomfortable, uneasy feeling.

perhaps too much stress accumulated once more. and perhaps due to my birthday occasion i dun wanna erupt so violently.

yesterday was zhixiang's birthday. it was also the start of our mid-year papers. guess what. i hit the bull's eye by studying eco-tourism and poverty. but guess what. i tot i wont be so lucky. so i left out the examples that i didnt memorise. so sad. i did another question instead. =( anw HAPPY BIRTHDAY TAN ZHIXIANG!

today i will be heading to terminal 3. i love the airport. might end up waiting and looking at planes for very long later. i dont feel like celebrating my birthday today. can i haf it later?!

anway. thanks to people who wished me happy birthday!

Valerie
Joan(aka milkk daughter)
Seokhoon(aka xiaoce)
Zhongri(aka korkor)
Christella
Asta
Kiatyin
My Precious Sister!(aka my lovely JOEY)
Preben
Yanbing
Yudhi
Constance
Tsali
Chantel
Alfone
Gabriel
Rui Yong(RI)
Farveen
Seok Hoon's mommy!
Gladys Koh
Kegan
Rehka
Sera
Xiaoyun
Yiwen
Felicia
Juliat
Zhixiang
Jerald
Daeyeon
Sokting
Tzexin
Madelene
Weelin
Weesheng
Weiqian

hope i didnt miss out anyone.

i still have to thank all the people that has made a surprise visit to changi airport to celebrate my birthday. namely FARVEEN SEOKHOON YANBING AND ZHONGRI!You guys have made my day! i was truly touched. and sorry too! my whole family that has celebrated birthday with me that day! =D thanks.

this is the most unforgetable birthday i haf as i had learnt lots of things!

thanks~!

HAPPY SURPRISE DAY TO ZHONGRI, YANBING AND PRISCILLA

2008-05-03T18:45:00.000+08:00

finally! i m given the opportunity to blog le. today was a great day. felt really happy as 3 of the main roles were really happy for today's surprise session. it was really a great event. i have to thank several ppl. they are namely.

Farveen
Seok Hoon
Sabrina
Pehgek (new friend)
Steven
Suwei
Yanbing
Priscilla
ZHONGRI

for making my event such a success today. i hope that the 3 main leads would be happy forever. =D i shall post some of the happy moments here. =D

Once again happy birthday to ZHONGRI! YANBING ANDF PRIS!

sorry for the rush. hope u all did enjoy the event!

gtg lerr.

will be back soon to post more photos. =D

it's may

2008-05-02T17:14:00.000+08:00

it's already 2.08 and i m not going to sleep today. why's that so. because i haf tonnes of homework. i did realise that i m really very lagged behind and i m truly worried. for all subjects. hais.

seok hoon was feeling down for the past few days. so i told her to acc me for some shopping today. she look rather cheerful thou. she is really my kai xin guo. so god pls bless her. i wan her to stay 1 month is not enough at all. pls bless her. XIAO CE JIA YOU! you haf me! dun give up yet. there is still sufficient time for u to learn. pls dun give up.

so tired. i dun blog so much today le.

blog on this sat. got lots of pic. now blog abit not appropraite. take care peeps.

so many things to do so little time

2008-04-07T15:16:00.000+08:00

there are so little time recently. my gp homework seem to be piling up. i hope i can do them faster and absorb knowledge quicker as well. i was really dull last week cos so many of my study group clique are feeling bad. JIA YOU TO YANBING SEOWHUAN ZHONGRI SEOKHOON(aka XIAOCE) SABRINA and FARVEEN!

i hope that this week would be a good week. where i can manage my time, and money, better. so i can get some life during my weekends. it has been long since i enjoyed myself. and the next time that i can really enjoy would be maybe during my jun hols. i think i can only take partial of the week doing some relaxation. this is due to the jun hols being a period of text consolidation before our next big thing ---- mid-year exams. so fast. i am turning 18 this coming jun hols. but i dun expect much. most probably would be another boring day. like last year. i love crowds of friends celebrating for me and i really miss that. i dun even think ppl will recall that day to wish me the best like i was in sec 4. awww! never mind. i still got good friends like my study clique. god is always fair i think. he always give and take things from me. so i shant demand so much now. cos i really love and treasure my clique of study group now. I LOVE MY STUDY GROUP DEEPLY.

i MISS JULIAT LAOPO SO MUCH! recently i seem to neglect her loads due to my study group and i deeply regret it. but i still miss her so! laopo let's go out this jun hols. i reserve 2 days for u! =] duno she will she thing nots. but i still miss her la...

hmm yah. talking so much about my hmwk and frens. i forgot to mention about my results. i must really work hard this term. my results were real bad. none of my subjects is up to expectations. and i m really irritated by it. though i did study. but the results dun show. how disappointing.YIWEN did advise me to change my study method and i think it's time for me to change before it's too late. being obstinate would not bring me any further. i must really work hard. JIA YOU in my corrected way!

oh ya. last friday. we had a half day. but our study group, HAPPY, still decided to take that day for study session. so after school our actual intend was to stay in school and study. but that day bing was feeling abit dull. so we stayed in school for awhile and then she suggested that we should study at je library instead. so we changed to je lib. but before that ce and han went for lunch with their respective classes classmates. we arranged to meet them there straight instead. while me and kor accompany bing to her place to get her laptop before heading down. i m, STILL, very grateful to what bing has suggested. why? this is because we met elvin ng! he is super shuai and nice! i really like him. it was bing that discovered him initially. he was hurt while he was shooting his latest production which will be aired on 5th may 9pm. must catch it's a taewando show. we took pictures with him and then kor made him a cert to wish for his speedy recovery. so nice. hope that we can see nat ho next time. hahaha. here's the photo of the cert and the photo is had with him. =]

kays. it's gonna be 12 soon. still need to do hmwk~! tata~!

today is good

2008-03-23T18:38:00.000+08:00

i m so happy today. there is 7 happy things that had happened.

1st thing is mr nazar treat swensens today instead of nasi lemak.

2nd thing is i finally found my school bag and i really like. it is $59.90 and my mom let me buy! =D

3rd thing is i managed give seow huan surprise. HAPPY BELATED BIRTHDAY SEOW HUAN.

4th thing is i today went to sony ericsson and sent my phone for service. this time the person said that my phone cant warrant anymore cos is liquid fault. but i passed by M1 shop today and i saw a phone i really like. and it is $0 now. the person i can renew plan le. which means i can change new phone tmr. woohoo =D

5th thing is den i was very tired. den intend to take taxi. but i met my godparents they sent me home as they are going to my place. so good!

6th thing is that daddy mimi gave me $50 as a reward for getting "A" level chinese. =D is such a surprise. =D

7th thing is that my aunt lose money during mahjiong today. so she told me go and play for her as she go to the toilet. i won 1st round ---- limit 自摸 . $19.20

today is a colourful day for me! =D so glad. i shall post some pictures taken on thurs. =D

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO BENJAMIN AND XIAO YUN TOO! =D

a new found friend.

2008-03-15T14:10:00.000+08:00

she is not exactly a new friend. but she is really nice. and that is seok hoon!

today she joined us for study session and i find her REALLY NICE! god is really nice to me recently. =D

i know her since pre-u seminar but i got to know her better today. she kept encourage me and tell me not to give up. even when we part just now she also told me to jia you! so sweet lorhs!

these days of i have been strong due these friends（排名不分先后）:

YANBING
SEOW HUAN
ZHONGRI
SABRINA
FARVEEN
WEELIN
my precious sister - JOEY
DAEYEON

today can plus seok hoon le. =D

p.s: i m really grateful to have all of you ask my friends. u guys had made me so encouraged! and u guys are really my angels. thank you so much for drawing away my pain and giving me so much warm. i felt so much stronger with all of your care and concern. i really love you guys and will promise to be supporting you when u need me~! my shoulders and ear is always ready for guys to lean and be a good listening ear for u guys. jia you for the coming exams. love you guys! byebye!

long post!

2008-03-08T15:59:00.000+08:00

hi ppl! it has been so long from my last post. i had blog on the feb 29th. but that page doesnt seem to show. never mind.

let me do some back tracking then. there was our school annual cross-country on the 29th feb. i ran abit. on the same day, asta and me met up with jingli and kiatyin they all for a movie "L'. after waiting for 2 years it is finally out. I LOVE L! he is so noble! the young female lead is also very pretty lo. the reaction L has in the show is amusing and adorable. i m so in love with him. i wanna watch again. the story still ended with him dying. so sad! that little boy in the show is so smart! he can solve such a difficult math question. i take my hat of him! another thing that i m amazed. his english is quite "smooth". L is so smart he can deduce and do EVERYTHING! love him la!

common test has arrived! i felt the tinch of stress!

perhaps due to the behind time and the loneliness in class ba. it is really quite bad. but i m glad that i haf my study group seow huan and zhongri. they never fails to brighten my day. THANKS GUYS! after school if i m lucky enough i will meet them in the sanctuary. otherwise i will be alone in the concourse. seeing my clique ppl brings me pain. i realised my fault le. but i felt really painful when they are laughing together. i m not transparent actually. never mind. i love yanbing farveen and weelin too. spending time talking with them makes my day really great! =D

oh ya! thanks zhongri for writing "Smile With Me" for us. it is really very nice and you are really talented! thanks! and dun emo le hor.

i really love my O2 OGL ppl! =D GAMMA MIA! and i know seow huan zhongri and weelin from gamma. so i was really grateful; cos the period before my OGL camp i was really sad~!

anyway. i m in the midst of my preparation of my common test. time flies! so fast already march le. i m scare leh. today GP paper i cant comprehend the comprehension. sian! i m beginning to worry. how m i suppose to do! i must work harder for my other H2 first. sians.

but at least now i dont owe hmwk le. can do revision liao! yups!

today i finally got back my chinese result le! though i m not happy with my oral results, special thanks to my examiner last year who shunned us away after i completed 2 sentences of answer to his question. i got my "A" le. i thank ms chung le. i m really grateful. =D

today saw lots of my friends cry, so i wasnt very happy after all. in fact i was heart-broken. deep inside. YIWEN jia you! we will go NTU together de. 别气馁！you are the friend i worry the most. also i hope that all my friends will get well soon. especially yanbing and zhongri !

TO ALL MY FRIENDS! you can borrow my shoulders to lean and ears to listen. i will be there for you guys. but do stay strong and jia you during the common test! =D

let's go KBOX and attend OGL O2 outing soon!

jia you! see ya'!

some random photos...

2008-02-06T17:55:00.000+08:00

MASS POT LUCK 2007!

photos of me and ju after CO!

still doing hmwk!

once upon the time

at bt view after sch (6th feb)!

oh ya! my chinese new year clothes in running order from chu xi to chu si. :)

i din regret being an OGL!

2008-01-06T14:52:00.000+08:00

well! i m sure that i was quite hesitant of being an OGL initially! cos i most of my fwens quit OGL rather last minutely! but O1'2008 is announced the best orientation for the past 3 years! 3 cheers mans! i m glad that i persevere despite me being so hesistant!

i had a really good OG! let me show u all my "sayangs"!

they are really great members of mine! super high! love them! i started my year right by making a right choice! :)

continue...

2007-12-21T12:50:00.000+08:00

i noe that it has been long from my last post! sorry leh! really very busy with clearing and tidying my stuffs!

i haf decided not to write this entry in chinese anymore. it's rather lag using chinese.

i wanna post some piccys taken in 九寨沟 and the day before in 成都！

the rest of the days in china is rather boring. i will only mentioned those that i think it's unforgetable. we manage to visit the panda conservation centre, the pandas are super adorable. :) how i hope i could carry one home. hais.

i want to bring it home!!

this time in si chuan we had several chances to go for sauna, massage and also hot spring. however on the 7th day, the 1-hour massage, guess what. i started to haf diarrhoea. grr. spoiled mood. the next day we discovered about 10 out of 34 suffered the same symptoms as us. we even visited the hospital. =.=" the toilet there is really unforgetable. wow~! i should haf taken a picture if i werent tat ill! there's no door! it's a government hospital somemore. wow! so we had delayed our trip a little. that's why there's no skiing this time. aish. i had also missed the trip to leshan 大佛! super sad de. that's 风云1 shooting scene. hais.

never mind. i did manage to like su dong po after going to meishan! he is super talented! i wanna read up on him soon.

picture taken at su dong po's place is more than a century leh!

picture taken at jing li yi diao jie the food there is marvellous!

then that's more or less the pictures i want to post le.

sorry my pals. i cant buy u guys anything cos the time for shopping is really too little. paiseh!

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on the 29th nov i went out with yiwen and took neoprints. shant elaborate! but it was super enjoyable! thanks for her present though!

i cant find the rest~!:( nvm if i can find i will post again!

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i took pictures with joan and preben as well. :)

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO NOELLE JIEJIE!

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO MR CHUA!

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO ALISON!

imback!

2007-11-27T14:45:00.000+08:00

我回来了！其实心里真得很激动。时间真得过得很快。我每次出国一定会有所谓的“后遗阵”。在中国四川的日子，每天都很像有钱人家的“拜金女”。每天都住在豪华酒店过着奢侈的生活。

这次地旅行，出发前所不上有设么期待或开心。凡尔多了一份不愿或不舍，以为本校在同月的18日到了北京去。咳！真是遗憾与悲愤的结合。但冲那儿回来后，遗憾减轻了。

16日那天，我们一家13人，也就是“第1组出国”，出发到了四川首都，成都。那天的天气阴阴的，约3半左右，就如我的心情一样。我当时一直在想要去北京却不能如愿，难过极了。嗨~！离开之前，我在机场搭了一通电话给yiwen。她当时刚睡醒，所以了得不多。没出国就想她了。遇见导游时，只是觉得她的名字很特别。她就叫“白冰”。我就出我觉得她一点儿都不友善。后来才觉得她是我认识最好的导游。

第一天的行程很简单。我们一家13人是隔天搭飞机到九寨沟的，所以其他21个人的连夜他车到茂县去注一晚。而我们第一万先留在成都。大约4.30pm我们顺利地登入了第一间酒店------沃特酒店（Water Hotel)。那晚的晚餐让我难忘级了。我们到了一家就家吃晚饭。在那儿，他们上菜真的是快、狠、准；害到我们全家人都吃的，也起得气喘如牛。那天我终于买到了我的长袜！我买了一双 -----才8人民币呢！那天我和家人还看见有人拍戏呢！哈哈！可惜演员我们都不认识。我和家人过后到附近的百货公司购物。我们还逛了他们的超市呢！哈哈！

第二天我们的飞机顺利地在九寨黄龙机场降落了。听说要在那个机场降落不容易。因为海拔很高，所以如果哪里有一朵云挡住，飞机就不能降落了。我们很顺利哦！感动！：] 在那里我们很容易会用高原反应。说一走路说话都得慢慢来。我们一下机就去吃饭，然后我们就前往5星级的酒店-----九寨天堂（InterContinental Hotel）。一下车我们在外面待了5分钟。

“下雪！下雪！”，二姨丈喊道！真的下雪了！这是我第一次看见飘雪~！还是初雪呢！美极了！又一次地感动。

i will blog next time~! gotta rest le!

bye!

funny and happy day!

2007-11-10T19:27:00.000+08:00

today is the day where i find myself really very dumb. me and my sister was intending to buy her skinny jeans. so we intend to go to peninsular to buy her black skinny. so we met brenda for lunch before heading there.

guess what! me and my sister and brenda like kuku like that. we dun exactly noe where peninsular is so we just took 7 to town. i tot my sister knows where is it. but she supposed that i was aware. in the end we learnt that peninsular is actually at city hall. wow! super duper diaos la.

never mind. we asked the bus 111 driver wear we should alight. i end up complaining that the uncle failed his math and tot he told us to alight a stop to late. so we entered peninsular PLAZA. we walked for 5 storeys and found that there is no sign of skinnys. so i told my sister to call her friend to check out where the location is. but her friend didnt tell us where the exact location is. so we end up wasting our time walking in peninsular PLAZA. then i asked a lady working there. and i realise how kuku i m. -.-'' she answered me that skinny jeans is sold in peninsular SHOPPING CENTRE, which is opposite. hahaha. i laughed at myself almost immediately when i heard this.

then we brisk walk to peninsular SHOPPING CENTRE. i m felt really embarassed sia. then jerald called to say that he nids to pass me surveys for landed. he told me that he called my hp several times and i didnt answer, as my hp low batt-ed just now. aish. so lucky~! i was at city hall den i cant meet him. so he met up with yanbing instead. recently when i do surveys with yanbing. is a gurantee that i can finish with her! i think i can work better with a partner i m familiar with. haha~!

i met yanbing at around 5.35pm and we had kwuachap for dinner. yum! yum!and then we set off to choa chu kang avenue 4. then we decide whether we should start to do landed or hdb. we called jerald. he was unsure and told us to call andrew. so i called andrew. andrew said the surveys quota for landed is tightly needed. so me and yanbing decide to do landed 1st. so we told andrew to give us a location that we can head to. and he gave us cashew road. i asked me how to head there and he suggest that we can take taxi. wow! 1st time do surveys taxi can claim. rare mans. me and yanbing is super lucky today. within the 1st few doors we have ppl helping us do. we arrived there at about 7.15pm and we ended work at around 10pm. so i finished my 4. hurrays! fast leh. 1st time. so i helped yanbing hunt for her very last one~!

then we took taxi home again! happy seh~! so rare to have taxi claims. so i reached home very fast. haha.

we haf mahjiong time again. and today i got win $$ too! haha happy today.

thanks to my god! :]

anyone go new kinds of jobs?

2007-11-04T19:51:00.000+08:00

anyone have new lobang? i only wanna work those short short one de. haha!

i m going to start my revision this holiday real soon. it's like i m J2 le. so fast. OGL i think i no hope le. from preben. he said i wasnt confident that day for the interview. maybe no hope le.

yesterday i was suppose to go out with yiwen de. but in the end cancelled due to my mom. cos she say she will forgive me if i dun go out today. cos i no $$ ma. SORRY YIWEN!

i was suppose to go to orchard with her, wearing my heels. i miss that! pls dun hate me too much. i hope that u haf enjoyed your ytd.

so ytd since i cant go out i stayed at home and did some packing, again. i m so not excited for my year end jiuzaigou trip. though its a family trip but i will be missing the beijing trip that's really a pity. so i spend my morning packing. in the afternoon i ask my mom whether i can go out and do surveys. she agreed! then i went to do lor! than it was like so sian. only manage to haf 1! so sian nah~! i did with preben.

today i m glad to find that preben and i still very 谈得来. good friends in jc is hard to come by. but today tok a lot of rubbish la. ahahaha.

after that i went to orchard with my sister to hunt for job. Joey is 15 + and she is also hunting for job. who got lobang pls intro! but she is disappointed today! but mei jia you!

let me post so pictures!

Happy birthday yudhi!

my class photo <07s10>

one of my best friend in JC~

jiemin's twin brothers! they are so cute lor!

UnLucKy!

2007-11-02T14:52:00.000+08:00

i think no one can be as unlucky as i m these days.

i should lock myself up i suppose.

why do i say i m unlucky~

it all started 2 weeks ago!

after getting back my results. i started to haf a lot of unlucky things happening. or rather nothing went smoothly! for survey job in acorn. i went for the briefing. guess what. i forgot to bring my extra battery and my battery went flat. sian. nvm. the following day i went to interview ppl. i was expecting to finish within a day. guess what i knocked on every door i went. every unit i have ppl over age. whole block i only manage to find one. super sian diao.

i was doing my OP slides the night before. then i was very busy and then i was sick the very following day! den cant rehearse with the teacher le. hais. guess what. i was so bold ytd. i quarrel with my mom. she is now angry with me. :(

today i looking for device to edit my video. guess what download 5 den found one suitable one. never mind. still go and corrupt my presentation. so i nid to stay up and do the slides. i slept at 5.12am. i will rmb that time mans. i took my medicine and sleep for a while. guess what. i m late for the taking of attendance~

zzzz. so sian. due to the drowsiness i underperform~ hais. so suay!

lucky sunday want go 拜拜了! before that i dun dare to 害others. :(

but i still wanna stay optimistic! jia you ba!

my reflections

2007-10-25T23:19:00.000+08:00

After being exceptionally unusual this few days. i finally can reflect on what i do in the 2 days. thanks for all my understanding friends ----- asta daeyeon and yiwen.

i have been riduculously loud, crazy and weird. i noted. i just wanted to use a medium to make myself less sad. i felt that i m trying my best to minimise the troubles that i have brought to my friends. but yiwen still got my worst part. she is really nice at times. she listened to my nonsense that day. she tolerated all my loudness and crazy moments.

i have my lesson learned. i must not be over involved in things. i shouldnt be over confident. never be dao! i must work extra extra hard!

i dun like this yr. seriously. i m just so not CINDY~

i din do well.

2007-10-23T17:23:00.000+08:00

I DiNt dO WeLL!

congrats to those that do well.

mixed emotions

2007-10-21T09:00:00.000+08:00

sometimes i would like to ask why are you so busy everyday. busy doing something we dont like everyday. most of the time this kind of busy, would make us lose something that is more precious to us.

sometimes i m so tired and needs comfort, but i realise i m alone. sometimes when i look happy and okay, i dun feel really that way. i feel like everyone around me is like wearing a mask. and as we gets older this mask thickness would increase rapidly. what's worse, it's that we dint realise it. i love the feeling when i m with joan, when i m with tzexin, when i m with asta and also when i m with fel and preben. where the allow me to feel at ease and feels that they are very good friends that you can rely on. i m glad. cos i have 5 of them.

i hate to say this. but i really feel that sometimes friendship is something that needs both the individual to work out. it cant be an one way traffic. i mean i dun mind giving and but at least he or she should be grateful. i'm grateful that some of my friends give me comments on how i could change for the better but sometimes i thought "my friend" could listen to me and change for his or her better. he or she will have his or her set of rules on friends. but i think i m a little to lenient on mine. i think he or she should know that no one on earth is perfect. but sometimes it is really hard to bring these harsh terms out of my mouth. hais.

now i m preparing for pw. so sian. and also mother tongue 'A' levels. jiayou jiayou! next week is also the announcement of results le. i m very nervous. i know i will be staying. but i m not sure whether i will be promoting. i m scare leh. i want to do well. :(

never mind. well. i bought my new pair of shoes. finally i manage to buy something i can afford and something i really like. it is not very high. the colour is okay. the design is sweet. hope to wear out soon.

i still wanna buy 2 new clothes. :)

kays. after all the randoms above must do homework and project work liao. working on the CO meeting report too~!

tata!

woohoo~!

2007-10-11T21:15:00.000+08:00

wow! it's like october le. i so long didnt blog le. paiseh la. tot it will be a better choice to pen down my daily in chinese. i wrote alot la. yah!

today i m dismissed quite early. my new timetable is rather cool. though i m dismissed rather late on mon, at around 4.30pm. but on tues i m dismissed on 12, while i m dismissed at 12.30pm on wed and thurs. pretty cool right. fri i m dismiss at 3.

today for pe we played games. my classmates took a basketball and a volleyball. i dun noe how to play both. so i try a few throws for basketball. i have 4 out of 5 in. rather happy with the result. haha. after that. 07s25 joined our class for captain's ball. wah. asta's class leh. while playing the game, i thought of the times we have pe in 4e5. i really miss them ahhh! every pe confirm got captain's ball de. so nice. i noticed that we haf a really serious battle on field. also i discovered that they have really good players. especially the guys(is a 10 ppl per group play, where there's 5 gurls and 5 guys each). i only know two of the defenders. one is mervin, another is zhixiang. they are strong. both of them look like quiet guys, so i didnt thought that they will be so enthu in a "gurls" game la. lols. gua mu xiang kan. it was really a tough far. we ended with 4:5. we lost to them by 1. but it was really fun. haha. i want that for pe next week!!

the long holidays last week, i used them to watch the shows i missed. i finish a show namely

this show is super funny. i really like it. currently still after zhong ji yi jia and gong zhu xiao mei.

haha~

today nothing much to blog le.

gotta slp le.

P.S. I LOVE MY sistaS! tzexin yanbing fel!! and joan too!

i dun want to graduate earlier than others!

2007-09-19T06:31:00.000+08:00

hmmm. today is our school cafe uncle's birthday! HAPPY BIRTHDAY UNCLE!

anyways. its 4 days to promos. and you might be wondering why i haven't been updating my blog even though i m so stressed up.

firstly, it's my project work ---- written report and finally it's over. now comes the insights and reflections. fortunately only need 500 words. then it's my insufficient time to catch sleep. thirdly, it's my revision for my promos. these things are what i prioritise now. oh and one more biggest prob why i dint blog. MY COM IS THROWING TANTRUMS at me again. hais. in case you might be thinking where i am now --- i m in school lib.

i haf been very stressed up lately. but in front of my family i do not dare to show my fears. but if i dun find a way to release my pressure, i m going to burst. my friends around m seem to be ready for the long-waited battle 4 days away. i m still shuddering with intensity. why m i so tense up. i m thinking about the consequences. i m afraid. after spending about 7 months in this school. i would graduate earlier than my peers without a cert. everything seems to be piling up very last minutely. i m trying my best to complete what i need to and spending suffice time to revise too. but it seem like what i have revise is far behind the rest ----- my classmates.

i haf a sense of belonging to the class lately due to the 8 princess, which is formed on the 12th sept, consisting of da gong zu to ba gong zu in the respective order, xinying, shimin, jiemin, me, seok hwee, yvonne, huimei and weikiat. this is arrange according to our birthday. my clique seems to be progressing fast and well. i gonna catch up.

but i m nervous. i still felt helpless without my 4e5'06 clique, my btv clique. i m racing against time. i really do. i dun wanna share this with mommy because she has "invested" a lot for me to study in this school, though the neccessary t-shirt, graphing calculator and assessment books. so i must work very hard. in fact i m afraid that i might be the 08/09 batch. "puipuipui!!!"

hais. i haf to go study le.

i hope when i come back to blog the next time i would be clear that where i stand. and not with mixed emotions like now.

P.S to the following people though i duno whether you got read my blog anot.
to JIEMIN! get well soon gurl~! you can do it de~! we'll stay together!

to YIWEN! laopo dun be to stress or too tired or too scare. my hp line is always open for you to consult~!

to FELICIA! mei ah! jia you for this promos you haf the potential to excel. haf faith in yourself. i haf faith in you!

to JOAN! i miss you darling daughter! how are u? next time make honey for you~!

to ASTA! siaocharbo! chiong all the way hor! sistas forever!

to YANBING! jiejie jia you!

to PREBEN! i know you are busy and tired beacuse you are heavily taxed on great responsibilty. but nevertheless, JIA YOU! you haf a friend that will encourage you through. rest well and take care of your health.

to OPPA! hwaiting! aja aja!

to TSALI AND TIRZA! i your friendly shoulders. :[

to ZHIXIANG! dun hate what you have to do~ stick with it and try your best for this promos! i know you can do it!

to MYSELF! strive to your best abilty cindy! you are still strong!

SCARED!

2007-09-03T17:25:00.000+08:00

perhaps that should be my present tense. there is the 18 days before the arrival of my promos. this is like so fast. i m really scare. i scare i m not prepared enough. i think even sammy and gladys can do well for their promos. but what about myself. intensity filled me to the brim recently. i m in the midst of exams preparation. i m starting with chemistry. THE subject i love. i want to do well for this. i dun wanna to disappoint myself with another D. at least a B. then i will work hard for an A great which will be maintained till my 'A' levels. everyone is putting in their 150% in their promos. 200% in their PW. i m not going to let my PW rot again. i want a good written report. i m scared. fear could be felt in every inch of my mind, heart and soul. i m really worried sick. tzexin said to me that day. if you have the time to scare, why dun you spend it on your studies. i said i do both at the same time.

economics and general paper. the 2 subjects i detest and worry for the most. i must try to like them. i try to understand economics, which is basically an alien subject that gives me a hard time and take up loads of my time. "Should i spend my time in doing more 'meaningful' things, studying for chem!" Chemistry and Mathematics are still subjects of my interests. studying them is never a torment. doing them is never a burden. but i must revise them properly. recently i didnt perform well for this 2 sujects too! because i didnt study well enough for this 2 subjects. luckily there is a consolidation period of 1 week, which is this week. i gonna do productive study! but definitely not at home.

i wanna admit that after coming to pj. i m 'so not according to my principle and i m mad. i cant concentrate during some lessons. i tend to hand in homework late. sometimes i do homework just for the sake of doing, sometime because i fear the teacher will scold me because i didnt complete my tutorial before lessons so i copied! wah! what's cindy becoming? i filing system, except for math and chem, seems to be in a mess. i become forgetful. i forgot sometimes about test dates, remedial venues, etc. in the past i used to be one of the clearest about these matters. i need to find back my lost soul. i must do it fast. within this 18 days. i BELIEVE i can do it!

this 2 days i have a very good rest. i also discovered the importance of my sister. i lover JOEY!i m so crazy this 2 days. it seems that i m letting out all my unhappiness through my crazy movements! i went shopping with my sister that day! and we did had a good shop. i m a member of SARA & PAT! finally. i bought myself a orange there! hurrays~ i waited for 4 months and finally i can own one. so after going to far east, my sister and i went down to bugis. this time my papa came and meet us. actually my intend there was to buy a tunic of my favourite color blue but there isnt one! gees~ my sister bought another grey one instead. sad mans! she got 2 le. one black another grey. never mind we can share. then she encouraged me to buy a black skinnies with her. she got herself the 2nd pair. she bought white this time. papa sponsor me $10 for the pants. he then took out another $50 saying that we can buy what we want with ther $50. my sister bought another 2 t-shirt with printed words for $10 each and i decided to keep the $30 left over. i came home after that. waited for sanjiu and sanjiumu to come for mahjiong session.i won $7 that day.

here are some pictures taken that day~

yesterday went studying with fel and my sister at jurong library. guess what i set the alarm at 8am and it didnt ring. =.= i overslept. grr. so i rushed down with my sister via a cab. we reached and settled there at around 10.45am. productive study~ i did some chem notes. before my cousins came to join me and asked me loads of questions. i didnt manage to finish arenes notes and i think its a waste. i must finish organic chem revision tomorrow! hope that everything goes well! after studying fel me and joey went to bugis and EAT! we talk alot on the way. haha. here are some more shots.

today going to study again. must turn in liao. otherwise will be very tired tmr~

goodnight!

35 days to promos!

2007-08-17T12:58:00.000+08:00

did anyone realised that time really flies. i was telling chan seng that day that we'll be having our promos soon when we are having our orientation. 35 days to J2. or?

well i dun noe about my outcome. but i m really very about my results. it is ridiculously ridiculous! i need to work 6 times harder! i m so frustrated with myself leh! i m such an useless person~

i miss 4e5. i miss miss lee's encouragements! some of my close friends encouragements too~ perhaps i m too weak ba. i feel like i m so very dependent on all these~

got to work harder le. :[

see ya!

i love this!

2007-08-04T01:35:00.000+08:00

i miss 4e5'06

2007-08-02T14:59:00.000+08:00

i m in love with grey recently. anyways that's not the point. i m had been very busy lately. but i think it's worth it. although lots of my sleeping time is sacrificed. but i finally have the feeling that most of the things are more in place now!

it's already aug 1st! i have been staying in school for the night study programme. i like the environment there. cos i can focus there! i m more motivated when ppl around me do the same as what i did. i did more homework there. just so tired lately. i miss my bed so dearly! i miss 4e5'06 days! around this period last year i m still mugging with joan! ah! i m so tired! i just realised the last time i blogged is exactly 1 month ago!

i want a break soon! i m gonna rot soon!

T.T

2007-07-01T15:52:00.000+08:00

exams are over. we're like having another short week break. especially for my friends whom ended their paper last friday. they had a 5 days break already and came back to school today for a rather silly pw written report workshop. then we will have another 4 days break with effect from tmr. actually yesterday was a holiday for some of us too! haha. but even it's already after exams. i dun have the sense of relief. hais. i hate words lately. hais.

recently i got a lot of things in mind that i want to buy. i want to buy i new blue top. i want to buy a new pair of heels that i love so much. i want to buy a new wallet. i want to buy a new pair of shorts. forget it. cos recently i cant buy anything. that's so disappointing. hais.

i want to play mahjiong. i felt so bored. sians.

photos:

greatintensity. :(

2007-06-22T22:43:00.000+08:00

well it's friday. just last friday. i felt the pressure of studying. because this is the first great mid-year in my new school. however i whatever i studied seems too heavy to stay in my memory. this has been such a long week for me. hafen been blogging for so long. sorry leh!

i missed joan's birthday! how could i. HAPPY BELATED BIRTHDAY JOAN!

i really hope to see her real soon! aww! i miss her so much~ she is a super nice friend.

so this week i had my 3 H2 and 1 H1. General Paper was my first paper. followed by Chemistry, Economics, and then Mathematics. wow! i fought hard this week. but i dont have the confidence to pass. aish. i m scared. well preben is still a nice friend! haha. yesterday me felicia huishan huiting preben and zhixiang. the 6 of us went to the library to study math. preben is still nice. he helps to clear some of my doubts and of course so of others too! THANKS PREBEN! i m so tired~

yet there are still so much things for me to do! luckily did some relaxation with gabriel jingli junye preben and zhaoliang. we had a mahjiong session. a really noisy one, most of the time because me cos today i sot sot de. lols. but really a happy one! haha. thanks junye!

i want a chalet by the end of this year. hopefully mommy get it! early dec will be good for me and many i guess! hah!

will post some recent pics in the next post!

byebye!

imclumsy.:(

2007-06-06T14:57:00.000+08:00

i was supposed to meet felicia as early as 9 am yesterday for breakfast at jurong macdonald's before we head to library straight at 9.50am. i left the house at 8.35am thinking that i will be punctual and i can walk slowly to the mrt station. guess what happened? i fell from the stairs. i was saying the day before i havent fall for a long time and i was laughing over my sister's super big bruise caused by her fall in modern dance trainings. she often gets dark bruise which is super significant on her fair thigh. now i have one super big one too! or rather several. i was rather sleepy as i walked and then i missed a step and fell. wow! i blanked out for about 10 seconds and then stand up slowly. i called felicia. told her i will be a little late.

i went home to put on some plasters. i was bleeding profusely. i was in pain. great pain.

so i met felicia at 9.30am instead. we ate our breakfast and head to the library at 9.45am. the thin glassdoor shut the overwhelmed crowd politely. at 10 sharp the whole "herd" rushed into the library and dashed upwards, as though it was the start of a great sale. we headed to the 3rd storey and settle ourselves there. within 5 mins. all the tables were occupied.

felicia and i studied from 10 to 2. we werent sharing our tables with anyone until our stomach alert us. it's lunch-time. we were hoping someone could come and share table with us. so they can tend our belongings somehow. we tidied our table a bit and then a mother and daughter came and sit with us. we sat down a while and then went to lunch @ long john.

we continued studying till 6 plus. i borrowed a book which caught my attention. pretty nice to read. :)

today i was supposed to work. the surveys from acorn. but i postponed to this friday. i went to study with fel today again. we studied from 10am to 7pm today.

good i m doing productive revision with felicia lately! haha.

studying tmr too! time management!

imseventeen!

2007-06-02T06:02:00.000+08:00

wow! i haf been so busy and today is already the 1st of JUNE! time flies!! is half of 2007 already. GST is rising to 7% in july. i have been pretty worried. i have so many things in mind to buy. hais. i shall blog about last week. cos this week nth special.

21st may: i went for the pre-u sem final rehearsal. i was super reluctant to wake up. i haf to meet fel and yiwen at the boonlay bus interchange as early as 6.30am. i was slightly late cause of my stupid tummyache. we waited for sharon and also fel's classmates -----joyce huiting huishan and shinyun. however we only wait till 7am cos fel's classmates haven't come yet so sharon yiwen and i went to ntu first. we were dressed properly in blazer tie and court shoes. i was hungry while waiting for our part to start. so me and sijia (07s01 de) with ruiping (from CDS de) to the macdonalds at ntu to grab a bite first. i should say the meals there is quite worth. cos a big mac meal there cost only $4.80 (i changed the drink to milo so add 40 cents) then we received a call and was asked to go back for the rehearsal. well. that day is actually quite a good day as there is teaching us how to guide our guests to the seats. we had several practices. thanks to mr joseph lee.

22nd may: this is THE day. we prepared ourselves an hour early. and standby. i was very excited. and yes. we received compliments! hurrays! the guests complimented us. haha. i felt so contented. this is the great feeling in service line. haha. at around 9.30am, we went outside to standby to serve food. wow! good food! we were hoping that the guests dont eat too much. so later we could eat. hahaha. really la. our GOH didnt have that much food. they are so friendly. i love serving them. we have our turn to eat after them. after that we were dismissed. some of the ushers need to stay for the panel discussion. so some of us left early. i left with felicia, huishan, huiting, sijia and shinyun. all of them are from 07s01. besides felicia and huiting, i dont know the rest much. but i should say all of them are very friendly. we chit chat on the bus 179, on our back to boon lay bus interchange. and then i head for home first. the other 5 discussed whether they should head down to orchard to shop shop.

i was meeting mommy and er yi at far east after that. er yi went to 纹眉. mommy and i followed to see. we bought several stuffs. clothes shoes belt... then i bumped onto huishan they all. hahaa. singapore is too small.^^

23rd may: i dont have to go to ntu that day. and mommy have her day off. she brought me and my sister to queensway first. yeah! i got a new pair of sports shoes le. i go for practical de. i personally still prefer wearing adidas. then we head to ang mo kio hdb hub. wow! i think its quite big there. initially mommy thought of treating me swensens. but there isnt any there. so i thought we should try new york new york since there i havent try the food there before. we went shopping first. then i discovered auntie monica's shop there. yeah! sianeders is there! haha. we chit chat with her a while and then papa came. we visited the foodcourt. overwhelmed by the food there, we decided to have our dinner there instead. after that we went to the ntuc there. wow! it's super big. i bought a thumb drive for 29.90. i think its quite cheap. its 2GB. oh ya! that day was zhixiang's birthday. happy belated!

24th may: i m an official seventeen already. haha. thank you abigail, annie jiejie, asta, dawn, daeyeon, huishan, huiting, jerald, joan, joyce, juliat, kiatyin, lixin, luyee, madelene, preben, ronald, sean, seokhwee, sera, sijia, shimin, shinyun, tsali, tzexin, weesheng, xiaoyun, xinying, yanbing, yiwen, zhaoliang and zhixiang for the blessings. sorry if i forgot to mention any names. i shant discussed much about the pre-u seminar. that day was pretty short.

i went to yiwen's house to change before we go out. she planned that day. yiwen is super sweet darling manzy. she gave me a surprise and i almost burst into tears. she bought me a cake. aww! we finished the cake together. i also took pictures that day! after going to kbox we went to take neoprints!

that day was a simple but happy day!

may 25th: i went out with joan that day. it also marks the last day of our pre-u seminar. haha. i went to her place to take a nap first before going out with her to bugis. i got to have my lunch le. hmm. refer to her blog @ piiore.blogspot.com. JOAN thanks and i wanna go out with you soon! love ya!

my malaysia trip.

2007-05-25T23:36:00.000+08:00

sorry for being a official lazy bum for blogging. i had a busy week last week.

19th may:

it was tsali's 19th birthday! happy birthday gurl. message her early in the morning. then our family members gathered at my da jiu mu's place. we are heading to malaysia for a family gathering. hurrays! family gathering with sim's family is always enjoyable. so we met at 6am. i was taking godma's car. i was really exhausted. so i slept through the journey. i woke up at around 11 plus. we headed to the ba kut teh store that we patronise everytime we go there. the food is still good!

after that we went to erlaoyi and erlaoyizhang's place to sit sit. they house kampong kampong de. rather unkempt and dirty. we went around seeing. den i saw 2 rats ---- dead. beacuse laoyizhang killed it will rat poison! super disgusting! eww~~

after that we went to haf to visit dalaoyi and dalaoyizhang's place. theirs is more cosy and nice bunglow. we had a little chat there and then head to our hotel to check. as usual we stayed at hotel classic. well. i haven't been in muar for about 5 years or so. there is a lot of places that we can shop that are teared down. the only small shopping centre that's there for us is the store. i went to shop there with my mommy. i ate my favourite corn cup. hahaha. nice leh. only RM 2.20. so cheap! i also ate tea leaves egg, RM 0.80 , and kaya balls, RM 2. nice!!! i m a glutton lately.

i saw many nice pair of shoes. but recently i think i have a lot of shoes le. must wait liao. aish.

godma bought 3 new pairs of shoes! i envied her~ nice shoes! i bought new stocklings there. mommy also bought me a long top at RM 10 only. love her!

at 2 er yi zhang wanted to bring us to eat sambal fish at the thai restaurant there but most of us are too full. but after shopping for a while i became hungry. i went to the macdonald's there to buy quarter ponder! they still haf that! it's nice. after that, er yi zhang bring me to the usual salon we go and wash our hair. nice leh. got massage de. very nice.

at night we went to a proper seafood restaurant to have our dinner. ohh!! i miss the crab. is spicy but nice...

20th may:

the adults woke up early and went to the market there. i woke up at around 9. only me and my sister is in the room. i watched some television programme. before long, mommy and papa came back at around 10am and brought us some breakfast. it is nice. then the adults brought me to the temper to pray. i have been rather troubled in my studies lately. rather easily stressed and upset. so i was there to make my earnest prayers.
that day was simple. we checked out at around 2pm. and went to have our lunch at an air- conditioned restaurant. i should say the service there is not very efficient. firstly they not just take wrong order. they also gave us the wrong size of the food we wanted. not just that. they also rather careless. aish. never mind.

after that we went to xiaolaoyi's place to collect otah! hurrays. the otah there is 40 times better than otah in singapore. it's just so nice. hahaha.

end of my malaysian trip. next family gathering will be our karaoke meeting! haha

hahahaha~

2007-05-21T14:58:00.000+08:00

i should applaud loudly as holidays are here! but what do this imply?

HOMEWORKS!

well i shall be grateful. i really love my teachers. Mr Edmund Ling is sure a fun and nice math teacher who never gives his little kids(the 07s10s) up. Miss Aw Chew Wei. although she scolds us alot. but i can see she dotes us a lot too. she always spends extra time with our class and keep us clear with our chem concept! love her. Mdm Loh. she is such a motherly teacher! i will not want to disappoint her with my Economics. she always gives me good advices. i told her my fear about econs and she promise to help me! hurrays! Miss Chung Ay Neo. i like her lessons. sometimes she shares her life experiences with us. nice right!

on friday, 18th may, which is our last day of school. i was like super hyper in the morning cos i thought i can finally catch nice rest during this long break before i learnt a super depressing news from xiao wei. "07S10 might be disbanded from next term..." i was feeling super low after that. a class that owns such nice teachers is going to disband. i was praying "NO WAY!"

Why are we going to be disband?

actually i really appreciate our teachers. but our STs dun really like us. we are a bunch of inappreaciative monkeys that drive our STs crazy. we are too noisy and inattentive in most of our lessons. aish. so that morning the principal summon changyu chongann melisa and xiaowei to the office. she told them about the thought of disbanding our class. she gave us the last chance to change for the better. if she still recieve emails of teachers complaining about us again she will really do that. she even told us last year she did that to a class.

i dun wan 07s10 to be disbanded. the way she is going to disband us is like 1 or 2 per class. i dun wan! we will be so extra in the new class. we must do well for our mid-year!

friday the group of us went down to ntu for pre-university rehearsal. it was not as bored as compared to other rehearsal, where we simply just sit there to rot for up to 4-5 hours. practically just sit. we were dismissed early that day. we were dismissed at around 12.30pm. i din have my lunch that day. i din haf any penny!=[ so i went to ntu with an empty stomach. that day not that bad laa. we had several practice on how to usher our guests...

oh ya! i cut my hair. it look a "little" stupid laa. but i got compliments from my family. can le laa. well let me post some photos first!

on 05th may:

on 07th may:

on 12th may:

i shall blog tmr too! about my family trip to muar. tmr still nid to go to ntu! jia you cindy!

PS: HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO THE MAY BABIES!

4thmay: changyu, huimin, uncle charlie

6thmay: sera

7thmay: chloe jiemin

12thmay: yiwen

14thmay: ronald, xinyan (ptps)

19thmay: blanca, tsali

21stmay: lea (ptps)

22ndmay: jerene (ptps), michelle (ptps)

23rdmay: zhixiang

26thmay: sharon(ptps)

May all your dreams come true!

time flies!

2007-05-15T14:02:00.000+08:00

time flies! it's the 9th week of term 2 already. i felt the sense of stretched and sense of tiredness. i think the people around me feel the same way. i must really apologised to the people i might have irritated these few weeks. i think i had become a very insensible and insensitive person. i promise to change.

these few weeks have been busy with learning the Chinese Orchestra syf's set piece. what happen that syf day is: many of unfortunate problem is being encountered that day. zhong ruan cant open their score, muqin loosen. off beat. we got a bronze. well to me that's more of a consolation prize. we are the only junior college with bronze. many of our seniors are super disappointed.

i want a break! a serious break.

i went out with wen several times this month.

i cant stand it. will blog when i m free again.

btv 21st speech day!

2007-04-22T17:06:00.000+08:00

time passed in a haste. the day before yesterday was bukit view's speech day. i, with chanseng and zhaoliang, have been looking forward to that day when we expect most of the sec 4 2006 batch of people to come back to school to attend the speech day. jc life is really stressful and hateful and i hope that the gathering in my homely secondary school to see my fellow ex-classmates would give me good comfort.

several of the pioneers dismiss early yesterday. ppl like eric, junye, preben, yanbing, zhaoliang and i, dismiss around 1.30pm to 2pm. i was feeling so down right after my last period---chemistry. i dun blame miss aw for her reaction. i blame myself, perhaps so of my classmates too. she made me feel so sad and mad. never mind about that. i bought mango madness yesterday. it cooled my anger somehow. den we waited for junye till about 2.30pm den 6 of us leave the school.

actually, junye preben yanbing and i thought of hailing a taxi to school. but on the way 2 cars stopped us and ask us for directions. we were like: " sorry we are not that sure" for the 1st taxi to " never mind we ask for you" for the 2nd car. we were so helpful right. haha. when we walked out to the main road den we saw one bus approaching the bus stop. "preben, is that our bus?" " yes!" den we chiong towards the bus. LOLs. you might ask what the rush. it is the attraction of the hokkien mee la! lols.

soon we arrived the school at around 3.30pm yesterday. disappointment greeted us. 1st disppointment, uncle ronald close his stall liao. 2nd disappointment, miss gopal told eric that we, ex- bukit viewans are not allow to stay for the speech day event! only the prize winners are suppose to attend this event! what is that! we rushed all the way to school and that's what we get. i felt so cheated. for once i felt that bukit view is not just a budget view but also very 'realistic' school. hais. the 4 of us eric yanbing zhaoliang and i walked round the school. i went to see the choir people. actually they dont sound that nice. they are singing SSA. den they 4 of us went downstairs. we saw preben telling preben we cant stay for the event. he went to mdm lock and negotiate awhile. den like can le. he say can stay. wah! for instance i m so touched and happy la. den we went to walk walk around the 2nd level. the rest of the prize winners also reached le. saw many people. den i saw ms lee! wah. i like little girl like that! i m so grateful la. i went downstairs with yanbing and some girls like asta xinyu germaine xiaoyun and joyce joined us too. we spoke to her. den i cried. thinking of those days she taught us. i miss 4e5'06 and her especially.

den we went upstairs again. mr zulkerfly said is time for us to go to the hall to settle ourselves. but then the ms gopal come and shooed us off again! grr. i dun like her la. den the 4 of us took out bags and head to the study corner near the staff room and sat there. soon the G-O-H arrived. the ceremony starts. me and eric sneaked up to the control room like little mice like that to sneak watch the ceremony start. haha. den zhaoliang called us telling us joan they all outside le. they go meet them for dinner. then eric and i went down to collect our bags.

we waited. very patiently for preben to speak. we avoided mrs tan and the G-O-H speech. eric taught me chem! THANKS ERIC! so brother of him to teach me. he even went out to get snacks. he bought for me too! thanks a million.

around 8 plus preben then started his valedictory. eric and i sneaked to the 2nd storey outskirt of the hall to view better. miss chua told us to sit down too! haha. we win liao lor! i 1st time so rebellious. i din obey what ms gopal wants us to do. LOL. i heard preben's valedictory. he is rather stable this time. :) he said lots of things that brings me to remember about the past 2 years. i really haf to thank him for his encouragements for the past 2 years. i took some videos too. just when i am engrossed in taking those videos. i heard him wanting to thank 4 of his friends. in sequence of what he read: zhaoliang joan eric and cindy. i m more thankful of his presence la. he is really a good friend. THANKS PREBEN! i really appreciate you!

after that we hang around the school. i chatted with some teachers and took some pictures! haha.

after that a huge group of us went to the mac. we chit chat. i stayed there till around 12 plus.

today did hmwk at homework. after entering jc. this seem to be the life. no entertainments not enough sleep. hais. what's more? project work and ccas for testimonials. god! pls give me some breath.

Busy!!!

2007-04-16T07:35:00.000+08:00

just recover from my fever. this week has been a long week for me. i haf lots and lots of hmwk. PI 1st dreft is also due last thursday. i was on mc on friday. but i went back to school to get my pipa. i need more practice!! i need to be more organise man. i think Jaycee is really tough for me. it is so tiring!! naffa test is coming soon. 6th week of this term.

but there are also happy moments. i went to kota tinggi last friday. with my sim family. this time 90% of our family member turned up. 32 of us went for a day trip to kota tinggi. we visitied the friut farms, temple and i finally manage to see fireflies! i m so excited that day. i love my family.

got lots of homework to catch.

Byes!

幸福可以很简单！

2007-04-05T13:48:00.000+08:00

i am horrible-ly tired this week! my class is getting more and more bonded le! hahaha. april 3th was our dear shimin's birthday. we gave her a surprise by keeping the birthday present i bought the day before 1st. in leon's bag i think. and we managed to gave her the surprise 'attack' during our econs tutorial which is the last 2 lessons of the day. hahaha. i like everyone man! 07S10 rocks! samantha brought her camera to school that day. we had a class photo le!! happy! sammie i want the photos! these days i haf been so tired. S10 drove me alive! so glad to be back. gotta return back to work. will update on the photos soon!

oh yeah. i saw the poem me and zl created that day in his blog :)

At the start of the spring season
In the midst of blossoms - snow
Bidding the winter season
Then,lonely little me knows
Bliss by the flower scent
Colours purple, pink, red, yellow
Hoping this will never end
Where spirits never goes low
Couples strolling in lavender garden
"Darling, I love u so"
Spring - Where love and concern is widen
I found my girl, my soul

loves.

tata!

ReStLeSsNeSs..

2007-04-01T16:32:00.000+08:00

i m getting so worried this days. no first 3 months really matters a lot. the tutorials to do really pile up to a scary quantity. the amount to spend is so unexpectedly great. the things i miss that requires me to learn gave me heart attacks. the sleep i have is pathetically little. the cca i join gives me headache(i mean netball). haa. i start myself with so much complains. it's only 2 weeks in peejay. these are some bad things i encounter that have really 'bothered' me this fortnight. is it really a correct choice to be here?

there are also good things that makes me really comforted staying in peejay. i have enjoyed myself in my CT. 07S10 is really nice. a really good class that gives me a similar feeling like 4e5'06. that class also only have one guy taller than me, 183cm. he is a really 'innocent' guy. lols. my brother! so funny larhs. sometimes i m really surprise by what he can ask. haha. i like my class working system. i have a good and sporty class manager, xiaowei. nice assistant class manager, alfone. nice pals like jiemin, yvonne, wei kiat, hui mei, xinying, seokhwee, gladys, samantha, weilong, chloe, angela, leon. i love S10. haha. but 4e5'06 is still better laa. also family family like that. i m so glad i got transferred back to my big family 07S10. i was transferred to S11 due to my H1 subject from physics to general studies in chinese. i m glad i made a point to appeal. haha. it was a success! i love my class. i love my subject teachers(except maybe for my gp teacher)!

on fel's birthday. we gave her a surprise. haha. she loves it. we're so touched. haha. we told the S01 people to drag her time to about 6 but our queen wanted to go home so hard that we almost cant give her that surprise. lucky got my yiwen(darling)! she manage to drag some time. we din manage to wait for all to start celebrating for her. but we manage to snap some good group piccys.

I MISS JOAN!!

i miss my sec 4 days. can play play. can study study. not too tired like now. i miss tzexin too. i wanna see alot ppl. i wanna do a lot of thing. i wanna go back during speech day. i wanna see the new hall. i heard my sister saying bv hall no air conditioner. i thought there is. bv still as budget la. hais. cannot make it la.

i wanna post one more before signing off.

blog!

2007-03-16T06:51:00.000+08:00

recently keep cant go online. cos my internet is being cancelled due to mio. irritating leh. i cant enjoy surfing internet during holidays.

recently i'm pretty busy with school things.

i haf been returning to school since mon. mon i had netball training and seriously i dun like the warm up. but the coach is pretty nice. he encourage me alot. i m new to being a netball player. the coach is interested in training to become a goal shooter(gs) in the teaqm. i heard many alien rules that day. if i m really in netball, i'll haf a hard time i suppose. cos everything haf to start from the very beginning. furthermore this 2 years will be really short. i really miss 4e5'06 days. those were the days~ netball 2 yrs so short. then join co? duno leh. still thinking.

wed went back for make up lectures for chemistry. took 985 with yiwen in the morning wearing pj's skirt and o2 shirt. the lecture notes seem to be rather long-winded but not so 'helpful'. mdm lock is so much better. i mean her notes is so much clearer. i must study hard for my chemistry liao. really must.during the lecture, bukit view unite to sit together again. haha. nice la. but the bad part is throughout the lecture, there is lots of ppl walking in late. there is even ppl as late as 11.50am when the lecture is suppose to end at 12nn. i went for chinese orchestra orientation. very boring! but i got to choose my instrument. pipa! hurrays. that makes me really hard to choose from netball or co. hais. sians. practice end at 6pm. lixin will be joining us in the next practice. went home and the mio thing really give me headache. so i did my tutorials only at 12.15am and slept at around 3am.

today went back to school for make up lecture again. after the lecture queue and buy lecture notes. we queue for more than 1 hour. and now i m at joan's place.

i took some pics with wen. will post when my net recover.

byebye!

continue...

2007-03-13T04:33:00.000+08:00

10th mar: our last day of orientation. i was late that day. i went to get an mc that day. my back was aching due to the fall the day before. but i went back to school. i din regret. we had a rather tight and enjoyable day. i felt so right to be in Ronson! we are super hyper that day. oh yeah. we also received the opack. our orientation tee is green. i think red is so much nicer. hais. during the campfire night. we had a very enjoyable night. we cheer for every group. i love auburn performance best.the skit is really nice.Ronson and Evans won the best cheer award. our cheer will be added to pioneer cheer. yeah!!! i saw the night sky of pioneer jc. is so beautiful~ the stars are still shimmering in my heart. we haf nice time cheering and dancing.haha! after that the bukit viewans gather. we had supper at mac. ppl there were: me chanseng jason junye lixin preben yiwen zhaoliang. asta felicia and zhixiang left earlier.

later going to netball training. i think i decided to join netball le. i got myself into some sort of debate with my parents whether to join netball and i "won". so i think joining will be more appropriate than just saying. i will try to update more joan. you must jia you too!

PJC Orientation

2007-03-12T11:09:00.002+08:00

hafen been blogging these days~ internet failure. currently at my cousin's place.

7th mar: my first day of college life begins. i actually meeting asta at 7am @ cck mrt. but later huiting also smsed me whether we can meet. then jingli came. asta and jl head for the lrt. but huiting was suggesting to me to take the bus. so i told asta and jl to take the lrt while i take the bus with huiting. and @ the bus interchange i met junye, zhaoliang and jason. we took 985 together. upon reaching school we saw many bukit viewans. glenn counted. there's about 40 of us here. i was in OG 35, Ronson! i was pretty nervous larh. but everything turns out to be fine. my OG very nice leh. the ppl very easy going. my OGL are zongting and michelle. i met good friends like faith, junxiang, kistina, louise, mauching, mohamaad, pee chun, shiwan, ziying and more. we haf some registration and admin to do in the morning. then it was long talks. very sian. during the break. bukit viewan reunite. lols. like family gathering like that. nice la.

8th mar: 2nd day. we haf talks for half a day. we learnt mass dance that day! i m the tallest gurl in my grp, or rather the tallest. but i had a male partner. reason being there's 2 gurls wanting to partner each other. i like that dance quite much. then we had station games. it was sort of a bad news to me. cos my sport shoes tore. zong ting very brother! he lent me one shoe leh. so he wore one of my shoe and i wore one of his. hahaa. brought some laughter along the way. then there was clan time. when we executed the forfeit for the 3 ppl, peechun, ziqing and shiwan. they haf to shout :" OG 35 rocks!" from the place when another OG is hafing their OG time. then it was war games. i missed the water bomb part. so sayang~ i got headache la, cos i bang my head. sian. after tat it was cca trial. i went for the netball trial. and i was selected on the spot. i tried for choir later. i got into alto 2. haha. good leh. no nid to much tummy muscle. =]

9th mar: we haf the leadership training. seriously i prefer Thumbs Up! de. theirs nicer. but i quite enjoy the pusher and blocker game. that game really brought out my spirit of persevrance and commitment. this made me feel right to be in pj. i fell for the trust fall. fell onto the floor. but the ironic part is i was laughing although i was in pain. reason being. i was already 'half' on the ground my team-mates still held my leg and head up. is a little like V shape. haha. overall the day was okay!

10th mar: end of leadership training. we haf our campfire night~! it was really great. i cant share much now~ gotta go for dinner. blog when i got a chance again. byes! =]

career?!

2007-03-06T17:55:00.000+08:00

what should i be?

it's so near yet so far.

last sat i went to career 2007 with asta, felicia, huiting, preben, sean and zhixiang. i m so interested in tourism industry. when we reached there. we 'auto-divide' to two grps. me preben and asta one grp and another grp sean fel and zhixiang. our grp focus more on tourism part de. i m interested in the "Sands" project. i saw the blueprint. so nice and big. i wanna see it soon man. it will be a great shopping paradise. but then i might haf the financial ability to shop myself le. muahahaa.

i went to the tourism talk. studying in a proper tourism university in switzerland cost up to $43000. so expensive lor! but i want leh. hais. so sian. after that me and zhixiang left earlier to mrt. the rest went for dinner.

i went to godma's house for gathering. i love family gatherings. our family is such an loving family. everyone is just like friends. we had a long mahjiong session. i group with my fave cousy noelle. we got 4 animals(5 tais) and peng peng hu(2 tais); 白板(1 tai) and 北风(2 tais) @ ! so is like so many tai. 5+2+3! so excited. but our limit is until 5 only. so sad. aish. but we enjoyed the game. at 12 we sang mommy birthday song! she is 48 le! so fast. we continue the game after that till about 2 plus. i reached home at 3am.

gotta slp. jae posting @ 8am. aish. cant wait to see.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY DAY OPPA~!

posting some piccys：

@ 河畔 =]

cousy(celine). joey. me. =]

vivian. me. =]

HAPPY BIRTHDAY EVERYONE!

2007-02-24T20:53:00.000+08:00

it's 人日 today! recently i haf been staying in the midst of blissful moments. i like the feeling of myself thinking like an adult. i must agree this holiday i really grow a lot mentally and i m really happy about it! family is more important to me lately. sorry pals. i hafen been signing in to msn very often these days. i haf been quite busy with lots of family gathering.

happy! happy! happy!!

duno what more to say~ hahaha.

i wanna catch "just follow law"! mommy jio me watch. we will watch as a family next tues! $38 for 4 tics and 2 combo. quite worth it laa. heard that it's funny. i think it'll be another great day ahead.

i wanna watch more taiwan series. 八大 shoot more comics show~ the directors there are good~

kaes. should ohoh le~

preben for the moment you will still be the youngest!! =]

HAPPY NEW YEAR!

2007-02-22T03:30:00.000+08:00

i m celebrating lunar new year if year 2007. it's a little bored this year. everything seems a little robotic.how should i say? never mind.

this year the angpaos seems to be growing. on the 1st day i recieved 28 red packets le. i think economic is turning good. even the angpaos grow well. =]

i went back to bukit view last friday. i saw many classroom decorations. this reminds me so much of 4e5'06. we decorated our classroom together last year. we even got 1st/ 4e5'06. a class that i haf many fond memories. we achieved a lot as a class. i really hope i can organise a gathering soon. cos i really miss them~

happy new year my peeps~ =]

decided le.

2007-02-13T17:08:00.000+08:00

9th of feb.

the day that marks my last day it bukit view.

i got back my 'o' levels.

well i was expecting 15 for l1r5. i turns out to be 18. i should be pretty happy with my results le. CONGRATS TO PREBEN MAN! he's the top scorer who got 7 A1s. =] wasnt that happy that day. so i went kbox with kiatyin they all. sorry ah bing. i wasnt in the mood to shop that day.

here are some shots taken that day during lunch and in school.

where will i end up? jc or poly? hais!

o levels result out tmr.

2007-02-09T10:22:00.000+08:00

tmr's o levels result day. aish. i m so nervous. gees!

yesterday i haf been out for the full day. i din get the trendy zone job! angry. me and qi declined 2 jobs due to them. then they tell us they enuf ppl la. so disappointing. angered~ but nvm. we got ourselves new job. we will be working in far east or square 2. i went to winsland house 1 for redken exchange audition. i hope i get it man! this is another modelling show. but this time i will get paid and get a nice haircut. i m super sick with my current hairstyle. but i will only be notified by new year. i was told to keep my hair till the end of march. hais. if i din get this one by end of march. i promise i will cut my hair. it's too dry and i haf no idea i to keep it moisturised. i should say i m not a girl that knows how to take care of my skin and hair. but i must learn it well.

i haf been enjoying this short holiday. everything seems to be going so fast. i haf to settle myself hard. i must settle myself to get myself to make correct decision.

ngee ann poly? singapore poly?

i think it's time to filter my courses i m interested in in this 2 polytechnics. temasek will be good for my tourism course. mommy forbids it because it's far~ gees~

i have been telling mommy that i will not be staying in singapore when i grow older. she keep saying that i m nuts. i think i dun haf andy roots for singapore. i dun feel the passion of being a singaporean. i rarely i even dun feel proud to be a singaporean. once yes. when singapore was a passionate city. when ppl will help strangers when they are in need. this kind of singaporeans are getting lesser and lesser and that's why i started to dislike being a singaporean. hais. if singaporeans change to be a more passionate nation. i might consider staying.

i remember i promised to post some nice pics!

zun posed for me!

aaron posed for me too!

bye~

life's so unpredictable.

2007-02-05T05:33:00.000+08:00

i hafen been blogging these days.

i haf been very busy due to my boss.

this week is my last week working in marina mandarin. i felt really sad. i remember the first day when i went in. the way i grumble seems so hilarious now! how irony. i was hoping to leave that place so much then. i was just 16 days ago. my opinion of the hotel change so drastically. i hoped that i could be with the hotel as long as possible. i cried on my day of departure. aish.

let me rewind abit more.

on the 27th of jan. it was a saturday. actually i wasnt intending to work. but i received a sms from acorn saying there is a survey job for me. the location will be orchard road. it was a tedious task. i felt that orchard road is never a good place to do survey. especially during weekends. i did solo this time. i called up my cousin, sera. she got her grp of friends in orchard. joey's friend aint ani good ppl. ＴＨＥＹ SMOKE! hatey hatey! i saw my peeps again! yanbing ah! asta ah! felicia ah! preben ah! zhixiang ah! thanks and sorry guys~ aish. cindy自知对不起你们! hais. that day i went to takashimaya for lunch. i went to the mac and took the window seat. i haf lunch alone~ sian! just then when i finished my lunch. i saw Hebe & Ella! i got their autograph. they are pretty nice. i promise to support their next album and concert. haha.

28th of jan. i should say that was my lucky day. i went for 飞轮海's autograph session. the event would commence only at 6pm at night. that morning our family had a gathering for ducktours and breakfast. i guess a question correctly and won a cute souvenir.

here's some of our shots!

after that sera and i went home to catch our breather. at around 2 pm we head to imm for the queue. when we arrived there at around 3pm. there was a long queue up to the taxi stand already. i bought my u-weekly! there is such a column there says for the 1st 100 fans that show the u weekly and the album haf the priority to be in front. initially i felt that it's for sure that all the 100 places are taken. however later on there was some one very nice telling me that the 1st 100 is still available. so i chiong forward to the backstage to standby. it was then i met shiqi! she is from marina mandarin too! but we aint that accqainted. so i told them what to do if you really wanna go after your fav star! though we know each other for like less than 24 hours it seems like we known each other for years. haa. the security tat day was like so stupid. they kept shooing us away from waiting. i told them to "jagar" with me. and we are so lucky. xinyi was 95th, vivian was 96th, qi was 98th, i was 99th! so lucky. i took alot of pictures that day. so glad.

mon i went to see zun and ella again. they are so cute~ post some pics later. take care

i saw them!

2007-01-16T11:16:00.000+08:00

yeah! 友情万岁! i saw bronte, huiting, yiwen, zhaoliang, shafiiq, rebecca choo and yibin! that's so great mans! i went back to school today! i went to see some of my juniors. they are pretty surprised that i was back. but overall i m super happy~ we chatted for quite awhile today. i finally gave zhaoliang his souvenir. that's the last gift i m giving away.

haa~ pretty tired~ this is a short post eh. dun blame larhs. byebye! =]

going back to bv today!

2007-01-15T16:40:00.000+08:00

i went out with joan on sat. with jeff as well. basically. it was some sorta shopping time. jeff was feeling down the day before. i was super happy to go out with them on sat mans! haa. i went to arcade with them as well. this was my first time playing games in arcade. the scores are bad la. jeff is good at guns while joan is good at drum. sera and joey met up with me later on. my mei super funny that day laa. after some dilly-dally, joan and jeff accompany us back to clementi for joey's dinner. joey continue her humour while i when to update my bank book.

yeah!! i got my pay from acorn. the pay was like unexpected. i was expecting it to be given on the 15th jan. that was what andrew said. never mind. although some of my surveys were rejected. they still counted them in my pay. that's hurrays for me. i draw $230 out.

after my sister's meal, joan and i went to release balloons. i wished. joan too! but she spelt out her wish. nvm. i did wish for her too! i hope all my dreams come true mans! haa. i love JOAN! meeting her this coming sat too~

i went to dayi's place after that. i gave papa and mommy $100 each and dayi $30. they were overwhelmed. i m contented too. play mahjiong with the adults. i was the 'santa claus' of that day. haa.

going back to bv today. hope to see my juniors all preparing hard for syf! jia you jia you! i m getting excited! gees~ =]