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Monday, November 28, 2005,5:29 PM
CoNfUsEd NiA...
today is serene jie de burdae... 21st burdae... tmr is weishan jie de... warmest wishes to them... today should be a very joyous occasion... but i just could not get a little smile from my inner heart... i felt very pressurise today instead... mommy had shown discouragements of miie choosing polytechnic nia... seems so baahz... korb also discourage miie nia... cuz i told them i hope i could get into i university after my polytechnic diploma... however korb says if i got a very determined decision of going to university... i should choose jc instead... otherwise life in unicersity would be very hard to cope... he also discourages miie to go into a polytechnic nia... haiiz... polytechnic or junior college...
>... i really have to work hard... real hard... i hope i could pursue the right career in life... a one that would suit miie... another thing that pressurise miie today is Peace... i pledge to stop my missing for him until after my "o" levels... but it seems to be a tough task... i tot i could be more relax... but it turns out to be another way round... i felt so heartbroken and hard to breathe... i dun like his presence to affect my heartbeat so much... hmpf... ytd my jiemoi(the male version) called miie "huachi" because of him... weeps... duno wat more to say... rest my lungs lerr... bye...
Thursday, November 24, 2005,6:32 PM
bLeSsiNg To PeAcE...
i hope Peace could eventually like miie someday... just a little liking from him could make my life not as miserable as now... missing someone seems to be a torment... especially if you know that he is the one that makes your heart race... he just automatically message you someday... your sense of contentment just cannot be hidden and you know you need to find someone right to confide... he makes you felt the warmest regards though his message sent were the simpliest questions or answers ...he knows that you likes him... he is just too shy to react to this affection from you... though you feel a little disappointed to hear that he had already made a decision to focus on his studies before wanting to go on a relationship... you had understand that the chances he would like you and look at you not just as a friend but also his girl would be very very small; but you just want to silently look at him smile, look at him laugh, look at him achieving his goals and excelling well in his academic... you felt proud for him... you wish that he could live the best he could live... even if he likes another girl, but not you, you would just quietly see him walk away with his girl someday... you will just smile and tell god that, "GOD, i am grateful you have found the right person that could make him warm, happy and smiling always... allow him to keep his girl till his very last breath and he will still tell his girl <>... not having any change in loving her till his end of time... i would give them all my blessings... because i would secretly tell god... i had planted my love for him since the second month of year 2005, when i finally discovered that his existence really affect my breathing, my heartbeat... he has never fail to make my heart speed... i would want all the blessings to shower on him... because i tell god " 'Peace', I LOVE YOU"... please... god; allow miie to be his guardian angel till he found his right pair of wings and right soulmate that will bring him to soar towards his better chapter of his life... a good friend of his will be the greatest disguise i would like to play... till he found his true love... i will wait... i will be his guardian angel that will shower him will endless encouragements... i would not mind to hold this role till my last breath... i will be most willing to present him with all the happiness i could get to him... as long as he never hide his smile... i will be contenteed... i would be your good friend beside you... keep smiling...(: