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Wednesday, September 19, 2007,6:31 AM
i dun want to graduate earlier than others!
hmmm. today is our school cafe uncle's birthday! HAPPY BIRTHDAY UNCLE!anyways. its 4 days to promos. and you might be wondering why i haven't been updating my blog even though i m so stressed up.firstly, it's my project work ---- written report and finally it's over. now comes the insights and reflections. fortunately only need 500 words. then it's my insufficient time to catch sleep. thirdly, it's my revision for my promos. these things are what i prioritise now. oh and one more biggest prob why i dint blog. MY COM IS THROWING TANTRUMS at me again. hais. in case you might be thinking where i am now --- i m in school lib.i haf been very stressed up lately. but in front of my family i do not dare to show my fears. but if i dun find a way to release my pressure, i m going to burst. my friends around m seem to be ready for the long-waited battle 4 days away. i m still shuddering with intensity. why m i so tense up. i m thinking about the consequences. i m afraid. after spending about 7 months in this school. i would graduate earlier than my peers without a cert. everything seems to be piling up very last minutely. i m trying my best to complete what i need to and spending suffice time to revise too. but it seem like what i have revise is far behind the rest ----- my classmates.i haf a sense of belonging to the class lately due to the 8 princess, which is formed on the 12th sept, consisting of da gong zu to ba gong zu in the respective order, xinying, shimin, jiemin, me, seok hwee, yvonne, huimei and weikiat. this is arrange according to our birthday. my clique seems to be progressing fast and well. i gonna catch up.but i m nervous. i still felt helpless without my 4e5'06 clique, my btv clique. i m racing against time. i really do. i dun wanna share this with mommy because she has "invested" a lot for me to study in this school, though the neccessary t-shirt, graphing calculator and assessment books. so i must work very hard. in fact i m afraid that i might be the 08/09 batch. "puipuipui!!!"hais. i haf to go study le.i hope when i come back to blog the next time i would be clear that where i stand. and not with mixed emotions like now.P.S to the following people though i duno whether you got read my blog anot.to JIEMIN! get well soon gurl~! you can do it de~! we'll stay together!to YIWEN! laopo dun be to stress or too tired or too scare. my hp line is always open for you to consult~!to FELICIA! mei ah! jia you for this promos you haf the potential to excel. haf faith in yourself. i haf faith in you!to JOAN! i miss you darling daughter! how are u? next time make honey for you~!to ASTA! siaocharbo! chiong all the way hor! sistas forever!to YANBING! jiejie jia you!to PREBEN! i know you are busy and tired beacuse you are heavily taxed on great responsibilty. but nevertheless, JIA YOU! you haf a friend that will encourage you through. rest well and take care of your health.to OPPA! hwaiting! aja aja!to TSALI AND TIRZA! i your friendly shoulders. :[to ZHIXIANG! dun hate what you have to do~ stick with it and try your best for this promos! i know you can do it! to MYSELF! strive to your best abilty cindy! you are still strong!
Monday, September 03, 2007,5:25 PM
SCARED!
perhaps that should be my present tense. there is the 18 days before the arrival of my promos. this is like so fast. i m really scare. i scare i m not prepared enough. i think even sammy and gladys can do well for their promos. but what about myself. intensity filled me to the brim recently. i m in the midst of exams preparation. i m starting with chemistry. THE subject i love. i want to do well for this. i dun wanna to disappoint myself with another D. at least a B. then i will work hard for an A great which will be maintained till my 'A' levels. everyone is putting in their 150% in their promos. 200% in their PW. i m not going to let my PW rot again. i want a good written report. i m scared. fear could be felt in every inch of my mind, heart and soul. i m really worried sick. tzexin said to me that day. if you have the time to scare, why dun you spend it on your studies. i said i do both at the same time.
economics and general paper. the 2 subjects i detest and worry for the most. i must try to like them. i try to understand economics, which is basically an alien subject that gives me a hard time and take up loads of my time. "Should i spend my time in doing more 'meaningful' things, studying for chem!" Chemistry and Mathematics are still subjects of my interests. studying them is never a torment. doing them is never a burden. but i must revise them properly. recently i didnt perform well for this 2 sujects too! because i didnt study well enough for this 2 subjects. luckily there is a consolidation period of 1 week, which is this week. i gonna do productive study! but definitely not at home.
i wanna admit that after coming to pj. i m 'so not according to my principle and i m mad. i cant concentrate during some lessons. i tend to hand in homework late. sometimes i do homework just for the sake of doing, sometime because i fear the teacher will scold me because i didnt complete my tutorial before lessons so i copied! wah! what's cindy becoming? i filing system, except for math and chem, seems to be in a mess. i become forgetful. i forgot sometimes about test dates, remedial venues, etc. in the past i used to be one of the clearest about these matters. i need to find back my lost soul. i must do it fast. within this 18 days. i BELIEVE i can do it!
this 2 days i have a very good rest. i also discovered the importance of my sister. i lover JOEY!i m so crazy this 2 days. it seems that i m letting out all my unhappiness through my crazy movements! i went shopping with my sister that day! and we did had a good shop. i m a member of SARA & PAT! finally. i bought myself a orange there! hurrays~ i waited for 4 months and finally i can own one. so after going to far east, my sister and i went down to bugis. this time my papa came and meet us. actually my intend there was to buy a tunic of my favourite color blue but there isnt one! gees~ my sister bought another grey one instead. sad mans! she got 2 le. one black another grey. never mind we can share. then she encouraged me to buy a black skinnies with her. she got herself the 2nd pair. she bought white this time. papa sponsor me $10 for the pants. he then took out another $50 saying that we can buy what we want with ther $50. my sister bought another 2 t-shirt with printed words for $10 each and i decided to keep the $30 left over. i came home after that. waited for sanjiu and sanjiumu to come for mahjiong session.i won $7 that day.
here are some pictures taken that day~
yesterday went studying with fel and my sister at jurong library. guess what i set the alarm at 8am and it didnt ring. =.= i overslept. grr. so i rushed down with my sister via a cab. we reached and settled there at around 10.45am. productive study~ i did some chem notes. before my cousins came to join me and asked me loads of questions. i didnt manage to finish arenes notes and i think its a waste. i must finish organic chem revision tomorrow! hope that everything goes well! after studying fel me and joey went to bugis and EAT! we talk alot on the way. haha. here are some more shots.
today going to study again. must turn in liao. otherwise will be very tired tmr~
goodnight!