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Sunday, June 14, 2009,4:57 PM
there's nothing happy to blog about..
since today is my off day, i shall blog for once. these days i wrote a lot of things in my diary. i have so much to consult. i felt that i m facing things of the real world these days. its really harsh. i feel so insecure.lots of my colleagues are undergoing relationship problems. i don't know what is wrong with our outlet at bakerzin. literally my colleagues are undergoing a lot of problems. i m absorbing some of their problems as some of them would share with me. my way of letting out my stress would be as usual, either letting out by crying or write on a piece of paper and then vandalised it. i mean i dont mind they share their problems with me. cos i m their friends. but i dont understand why all of these problems are happening at the same time. sometimes i also wondered, m i not matured enough when i m facing all these problems. i need to be more sensible and mature. i became quieter these days. i m tired to talk about anything. my speech is always surrounding consolation of my colleagues. i think god is putting me through a test. i m honoured that i m given the abilty to console people around me. i m glad that people around trust me so much. but i also really do hope that they could quickly pick themselves up and become happier. i m praying hard. i felt that i m turning to become more and more effortless.i miss joann. i really miss her presence. she is not replying to my texts. i miss her so much.i miss my school days. when those days i only for my school work to worry for.now i felt that i have loads of problems that i dont wish to share with my parents. hais. they themselves gave me quite a lot of pressure as well.should i or should i not sign a contract with bakerzin. i feels so vexed with this problem as well.maybe i should find another full time job. aish.don't wanna talk already.tomorrow going out with yiwen and felicia. tues with yanbing seok hoon and zhongri.i m afraid i wont be in the correct mood. i need to adjust.yup.