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Wednesday, May 13, 2009,2:15 PM
12th May 2009
HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO MY DEAREST LAOPO ANG YI WEN! =D STAY SWEET AND SMILE ON! SORRY THAT I CANT ACCOMPANY YOU TODAY DUE TO MY CURFEW.12th May 2009. it marks the year anniversary of Sichuan earthquake that took millions of lives and destroyed millions of hope and family. my heart undergone the same kind of destiny yesterday. loads of things had happened SO SUDDENLLY. first it was my mother. she was sicked for the past 2 weeks and she finally couldnt take it and took a long medical leave. i was shocked though to see such a weak state of her. i felt so heartbroken to see her so weak. but i felt helpless. i felt useless for not being able to cook for her. what i know how to do was to change bedsheets for her tidy up the place and also pick up her food and my respective aunts place. i felt so unfillial being her oldest daughter. i detest my incapability.next was brenda. she is going to be transferred to paragon next week. with immediate effect. i was shocked and astonished to hear this because i was closer to her after my dearest joann, the other team leader, has left. we are never friends, but family. we are so close and yet we have to be torned apart. i dont understand why do the management team have to transfer the paragon team leader to our team and my brenda to paragon. i really do hope that she could be transferred back. i m going to miss her so dearly. in fact i cried yesterday when i learnt the news. she was my mental coach which often encourages me. but why her not others?!third. lam spoke to me yesterday about me being too nervous and uptight when there is a "jam". and when that happens, i would tend to be rude to our new comers. i therefore that i could apologise to them for my wrong attitude as a senior staff. fourth. i was a barista yesterday. i was glad that i dint jammed up my drinks. however i think i m not outstanding enough because i cant maintain my standard for my cappuccino and latte. i believe mocha as well. i always felt very busy yesterday. hais. i really feel very useless. not fast enough for anything.fifth. was something rather personal between me and my dearest er jie joann. she was sad and guilty because of me and because of that i was guilty and sad as well. i dont wanna share with any one else yet till i calm down.12th may. quite a sad experience i remembered.