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Friday, April 28, 2006,8:21 PM
~~~~~~confused week~~~~~~
this week feels abit good and bad at the same time.
the good thing is that this week is an examination week and i got my work mode back. xD another thing is that we are friends. close and good friends. can see him play happily and talk normally liaos. heng arh. there is no more teasing for him and miie. i dun like all the teasing. we are like north pole and south pole when they start rumouring. we will be so near yet so far. i believes he hates those too. i dun think he would care about my feelings much. i m just a normal page in his book and he may not rmb miie in the future. we might go separate ways in the near future, after our 'o' level. how i wish i could always be in his book that he could occasionally recall he has a good friend by the name of cindy chua. it's ok. good times are never too long. and i noe that our time is running short too. i like to see him smile more often. i wan that smile to remain on his face always. it will be in my heart. i wish he could always be very very blessed and happy. god please give him all your love. give him my part. i dun mind. my happiness you could also just give to him and my friends. i love all of them very much. i really dun bear to let them be sad. pls god let them always be blessed and love by you.
hurray~ finally pass my geography test sia. good thing. ss also pass. begin to like sbq. today mid year started liaos. i focused on my sbq questions and onli did one essay. poo sia! i studied the wrong chapter. den duno how to wrong the essays. den i only use "agar-ation" to do one of the essay plus got weigh. i think can pass a little baa. hope so. today my darling milkk daughter cried sia. i very sad. very unhappy. hope that she is fine real soon. cos i like her to smile also. JOAN. jia you.
i heard that he dun likes my milkk family. well if he is a normal friend of mine i wouldnt mind. cos i really lurve my baobeii and milkk family and i dun like ppl to criticise or make farn of my family. however he says he dun like it. i feel alot more different when i hear this. this made miie sadder. nvm. he dont care. now i feel like moving away from being his friend leis. i m afraid if we are two good friends. i might expect more. hence i wan a distant away from him. i noe i m not his her. i must always be very prepared that he is leaving. i duno. i dun wish to noe. but if i keep my distance from him i will also feel sad. hais. let time dilute my feelings. can it? i duno. i only noe that my feelings for him will always deepen everytime i sees him. nvm.
i wanna concentrate on my studies. i din plan to fall in love in my secondary school. i dun want early relationship. i onli want one in my future. near enough. i wanna wait for the future one. i dun wan any experiences any earlier den after my 'o' levels. okok. wanna study now liaos. Cindy jia you for you exams!! xDxD.
Hello. I'm cindyC!. I'm TWENTY years old. Borned on 24th MAY '90