school reopens today. ahhhh. which means the pace of everything would start doubling. i gotta get ready. god will guide miie along de. i m not scare. but 1stly. i must thanks sean for bringing miie to his church. his church made miie realise alot of things. i love it mans. i love god. god is so great. he had accompanied miie yesterday along too.

i was moody this 3 weeks. and i din haf the mood to start on my homeworks. so i started only one week before school open. i managed to finish my amaths emaths chemistry. that was pathetic. and also i had to take a day of as i went to serene jiejie place to work as a part time on wed.

saturday it was my cip slot. it was initially okay. oh ya. jeffrey joined us for that day too. every thing was okay until the part when they wanted us to shelf books. pushing the big big trolley of books. then everything starts to become boring. at night. my sister brought miie to singapore polytechnic to watch kent ridge unity performance. we were so busy. my cousin sera told us to go back clementi to help nessya get her clothes so that we could to town for a movie then. that night we watched "just my luck". it was practically romantic by not realistic. hais. it was 1.26am after we finish watching the movie. this was the 1st time i m outside at orchard so late without my parents. lols. i was so hungry. my sister too. i skipped my dinner for the sake of the movie. hais. i promised my cousin le. but i din noe that there was no refreshments for us that went for the unity performance. hais. after that charlie uncle drove us back to clementi when we tot we could finally haf some food. nessya realise that she lost her handphone. then uncle sent us back. no food.=(

ytd. xy came to my place to do hmwk. she still doesnt noe how to reach my place. hais. must learn arh. if not next time dun come liao. lols. we were tired and had 2 hrs of nap before we start cracking. we start with physics. ahhhhhhh. so difficult lor. hais. den i did alittle of geog. copied xy ans. but some was sth irrelevant so i did some myself. and den i realise that i hafen finish my eng. so i chiong eng like siao liddat. i did it till 4.15am. so exhausted. but god did gimme the power to persevere on. he is strong and this friend and saviour of mine had also help miie through. god i praise you!!=D

i slept at 4.30am ytd. today still not too tired. but i m more confident that i could finish my hmwk in time. and i hope can understand what i dun understand in ss geog phy and bio really fast. he will be by my side. always. so i should always feel safe. and at ease in learning things. i love you jesus. start praying more frequently. =D


erm. i m quite disappointed with some for my friends today baa. or rather ytd baa. perhaps i m too selfish. i shant mention any name. there's 3 of them. i gif them nickys. nice one. erm.

eci is one friend i regard as one of my best friend. i knew her for 4 years. she is the 1st gal i felt safe with. felt that i m at ease in my secondary school. she has become. how to say. erm no as guan xin miie le baa. i felt it today. when she requested miie to gif her sth. which i turn i ask her several question and she "ignored". but when i m gifing her that thing she become a little more animated. i still love her as my friend though. maybe she is busy.

minnie. she is a little distant away from miie now. is it because i m too irritating. she loves fun. she worries about her academic when time become a little too short for her. i m worried her. i m too kpo le(need to change). but i m still willing to wait for her and help her when she needs it. go on gal. she is still one of my friend i regard as close. i m only scare i become to annoying to even become her normal friend. oh no.

ecaep. he is a typical shy person. hope that our friendship persist on. hope it'll become stronger. no more obstacles and bad things coming between us. you must jia you too in what ever you do. i noe i hurt you once. i was hurt then. hope that you'll heal fast. jia you baa. just be happy boii!!

well i got a bad problem. i must learn how to communicate and make friends mans. need to learn it well. before everyone start detesting miie. woots. miie must buck up liao.

i did homework till evening ytd and then went shopping with mommy in the evening. oh ya. we saw yudhi too. with his mother. he is so sweet. pei mommy shopping.well. that's bout all.

"tmr is another day..."


i went to serene jiejie's company today to work as weekday part timer today(weekday rate). well. i actually din expect that the job is so simple. i expected something more demanding. i was most of the time told to wait. i waited for quite some time. the company's name is something like network twentyone.

i was told by serene jiejie to reach raffles place mrt station at 11am. i reached there at 10.45am and waited for nearly half an hour and she din appear. she called miie then and guide miie to the city house lobby and told miie to wait for her there. she was so busy today. she went to visit a client before coming to miie. i went to her office den. the one at the 13th floor of the MNC building.

when i reached her office, i was so shocked to see thather office is so unkempt. aiyoyo. we spent some time tidying the area. and it took us a great 2 and a half hour. wow! the trolley is so heavy and there's 3 of them. two extra big one and one small one. the pile of envelopes serene jiejie put at the top of the shelves fell down and knocked her head. she's still strong. jiejie has really been a really responsible adminstrator executive. SERENE JIEJIE JIA YOU!!=D after that i was told to play computer games 1st. heng ar. i brought my a.maths there to do. after that it is some sorting out job and packing job. well it is still managable laa. i m slow. sians. my CNS lately so retarded. grr. dun like sia. must train liao. must be like sec 2. active and alert and learn things also quite fast. must train and stay focus liao.

after that papa mama and er yi visited and delivered us our lunch. thanks goodness they did that. serene jiejie is so busy today that she skipped her breakfast. we had our lunch and had some time for chit chat. after that i continued work. sorting and packing. working under jiejie got no stress perhaps because she din wanna give her beloved cousins stress. i like her. she really din give miie much stress. jie you must really take care of your health. dun tire yourself.

i worked very little today. perhaps it's because jiejie got not enough time to teach miie what she expects miie to do. i always been waiting. i waited until 7pm with her(she knocks off at 7pm). she gave miie my 8 hour earnings. i m a little touched. though i din do much today. i had earned money. i m glad. i shared $56 with my family. i m glad.

thanks for the opportunity jiejie. thanks. =D


yesterday in church i learn about how to be a good parent.

i was taught:
1. Giving Attention
2. Giving Assurance
3. Giving Affection
4. Giving Approval

this is what pastor kong had taught yesterday. pastor also mention though some of us might not haf a good earthly father, but we'll always haf a good heavenly father that would always meet up to our needs at the nick of time. always guiding us along. yea!! praise the lord. yesterday church had the father's day special. the church drama group came out with a short skit. i heard the million dollars song. LOLS! so i thought i going to joan's blog to listen to that song. so long din hear le. but i think she deleted away le. aww.

den we meet papa and mommy at orchard road for dinner. actually thought of eating crystal jade. but i suddenly rmb the korean restaurant that was recommended on channel 8. yeah. i gave my earthly father a great big hug. I LOVE YOU PAPA!! we went to the basement where the korean restaurant is. we had korean food yesterday. we were very contented. we ate bbq pork fillet, chicken fillet, ginseng chicken, seafood pancake. i love the food. the taste is so great. i love the meal ytd.

today i spent all my day doing homework. i m slow. did very little today. though i spent my whole day. hais. i onli finish emaths. i wanna finish by this thurs. latest by this fri must complete.

i spoke out my thoughts to papa today. i m so glad that he understand what i said. but mommy seems to misunderstand miie. she says she will not trust miie animore. i love my family. the fact that made mommy said that means that i m really too much. that's not good. lucky i told my thoughts to papa today. my soul is being released out. i will not react weirdly from today onwards. i m not working this sunday animore. the job might drag till 1 am or even 2 am. i siao laa today. maybe because i din rest today. my eyes sore now. reaction also weird weird de. MOMMY I M SORRY. i felt so better after telling papa my thoughts. he understands what i mean. i love my family so much.

praise the lord. thanks god for giving miie a wonderful family. =D



i lurve god so much. i learn lot from today's cell group meeting.

i learnt about fellowship with one another and fellowship with one another. sister yating taught miie alot today. i feel so refreshed. yeah!!! sister yating taught miie that fellowship is very important. without fellowship, we cant be cleanse by the blood of jesus. we must walk in light. light and darkness cant fellowship together. sometimes when we do something wrong we tend to be afraid. that's when we are in the dark. we can come out to light and learn from our mistakes. fellowshiping like sharing our problems with one another, willing to pray together, praising lord together; is very important. hatred, resentment and etc. are forms of behaviour that reflects as that we are in the darkness. sometimes we are blinded by them and we didnt notice that we are actually in darkness. we must learn to walk out of darkness. walk towards light and fellowship together. only by doing that. the blood of jesus will cleanse us clean from our sins.

well yesterday was another long day for miie. i met up with tzexin to do hmwk. din do much due to the presence of xiaoyun. duno why. i onli completed 1 miserable maths question. the day b4 when she wasnt arnd was okay. did quite alot. hais. so after that i went to jurong point to meet up with mommy and mei mei they all. ate there. and WE SAW KERO!! lols. well actually i shldnt be so hyper. but is like saw superstar. he is very wen rou. lols.

okay i m tired. blog till here.

bye~


i m not gonna continue to be gloomy. that will do miie no good. being optimistic is my way of solving problems. i will be happy everyday. i'll be strong. i learnt what's strong last year. but i din execute it this year i felt. i will be better.

today i m very glad. i had my physics remedial in the morning. mr ho came out with a very cold joke about da chang jin. lols. really very very cold. i learnt a lot for physics today. cleared quite alot of things. yeah yeah. there's another session tmr. whoohuu. can clear more concepts.

after that go opposite with tirza makan. she's so cute. haha. nice gal to haf. fortunate "AHHHHH AHHHHHHH AHHH JUN~ joking laa. we got some time for sweet talk. we talked about 1e3 time. that time was good. when tracy is still arnd. i miss her so much. hope that she's okay. lurve her lots. just smsed her. haha. den it rained very heavily. we got more time to talk. lols. i told tirza about my primary school life. told her how tomboy i was when i was in my primary school. she got very surprised somehow. i will improve for the better. we saw wari and joan. they ran in the rain. after the rain got fall lighter. miie and tirza walked back. we did hmwk our classroom. <3 it. haha.

den it was time for bio remedial. i still got "yi dou wu shui". hais. i guess i can do it myself. yes i can do it.

after that i went to bb mac with tzexin. we did hmwk there. hey i can concentrate real well. last 2 weeks i was slacking my time away. i will finish my elementary mathematics and chemistry today. i will do my geography and social studies tmr. :]

den i went to jurong point with mommy for dinner. she bought lots of clothes today. haha. her time for the GSS. i m truly worned out. needa' break now.

tata~


i m really moody this few days. i m challenging myself it seems. i couldnt believe myself animore. i dun trust myself animore. even my sister also said i m a bad person.

i m wrong i m wrong i m wrong i m wrong i m wrong i m wrong i m wrong i m wrong i m wrong i m wrong i m wrong i m wrong i m wrong i m wrong i m wrong i m wrong i m wrong i m wrong.


i changed my blogskin. and i did it myself. so happy. haha.

i miss peace. alot alot. what can i do beside missing him. do hmwk. lurve god. and continue to like him? i noe that he has someone he likes. but i duno who she is. but i will pray for them.

i did alot of reflections lately. got lots of things to learn. today i watched lu guang sen ling ending. okay laa. but abit illogical. chiong hmwk now. lazy to blog. maybe blog ltr.


i m so silly and i could not even edit my own blogskin. hais. i will learn.

ytd i went to somerset for english seminar. i reached there at 7.15am. it was too early. the seminar starts at 8.30am. so i waited for yanbing they all for an hour plus. i felt so alone. then they have all arrived. we went to the venue and registered. then we went in.

i was sitting in the second last row of the seats. 4 gals of another school sat behind miie. and soon everything commenced. i was a little unfortunate. cos then i realised i brought my spectacle box without my spects. so i had to strain my eyes alittle ytd. but the bad part is, i had 2 chatterbox chattering from the start of the programme. not discussing about the eng seminar thingy. but about their idols. they got very animated and loud. already i couldnt see the speaker properly, i couldnt hear the speaker properly now. i got very irritated. i asked huiting several times about what the speaker is talking about. she is very serious during the seminar. till i really cannot tolerate alrdy. i slowly turned back and told them to tone down abit. i din tell them to stop talking. they say okay looking apologetic. finally i got some peace and learned quite alot from the 1st speaker.

after that it was time for tea break. sians. another gal, not the 2 i told them to tone down, confronted miie. she told miie i was very rude to tell them to tone down. she said if i m not happy i can change my seat. well firstly. to listen attentively and not moving arnd is a basic manners we should pay to the speaker that is speaking. i told her nicely that it's rude to change seat during the talk. the 2 friends of hers kept very quiet. then that gal continued giving miie a crude name saying that since i dun like them to talk i should change. even the 2 that i told finally reacted and said that she no need to react this way or get this angry. i din wan to talk further so i left the place.

i got really pissed off by that gal. i went out for teabreak but i lost my appetite. hais. korkor said i shld be streetsmart. well perhaps i really is. i should haf tolerated the 2 gals that is chattering so loud laa. till the talk ends. its my fault. then i when to look for huiting and fel about to tell them we'll change seat after the teabreak. but so suay. i saw that gal. i tot she was looking for miie so i said "yes". then she start swearing again. sian. i didnt wanna talk much. she got very agitated and she spilled the cup of tea onto herself. omg. i didnt react to that. cos i saw her friend also grinning away. hais. i left to the toilet. i wanted to reach mama but i cldnt. den i realised they tailed miie to the toilet. sians. she wanted to call miie out. i din wanna react to her. den i left the toilet and changed seat with tsali. i felt uneasy. really uneasy. this feeling is like when i was in sec 1 a bunch of seniors confronted miie suddenly, scolded miie without any reasons and told miie to "go back to china". i was so depressed laa. i got the same feeling ytd. hais.

actually i learnt quite alot from the seminar ytd. i m grateful to god still. i still will praise him. i got a bad morning. after the seminar, we went to heerens. actually wanted to take picture with lina de. but she got to leave early. sean they all too slow le. they went to america before coming to the neoprint shop i supposed. haha. but taking neos with them is so fun. we had a fun time in changing our positions. haha.

after that we went to long john to haf our lunch. i took 8 packets of chilli this time. zhixiang treated xiaoyun. xiaoyun treated miie. miie and asta treated joan. lols. THANKS XIAOYUN. after that we went to take mrt. joan and asta very funny. keep playing and playing. fun sia. i went to bukit batok first. buying the thread for fel. then i headed home. i m truly exhausted. i took 189 home den.

that's about all.

tata~~

i appreciate god for giving miie friends like joan and ronald. they always give miie my negative comments and allow miie to improve. though they had their very close and good friends they are nevertheless my true friends. i will pray for them pray hard for them. thanks.


I MISSED SERVICE TODAY!! :<


ytd my sister me joan alison abigail all went for sean's cell group meeting. we had a great time at tiong bahru ytd. when we arrived we had some time for worship. we sang 3 songs for our friend, our saviour, our god---father jesus. ytd he allows miie to learn that friendship is never accidental. they are the best give god haf given. it had also gave miie a very good help and guide. especially due to recent reasons that i was so "caught up" with friendship. i have learn how to choose friend.

we haf to choose friend that:
1. make you wise
2. challenge your way of thinking
3. help you share your burden
4. help you grow spiritually

we also have to learn to:
1. serve one another
2. be generous to one another
3. be interested in one another
4. be encouraging
5. appreciate each other
6. smiling at all times
7. love others than self
8. be true to one another

these are the most important guide i have learn ytd. friendship are made, developed and cultivated. the friends we made mould our lives and character.

after that. ytd there was a Great Singapore Sale's(GSS) idol. our team consist member of my sister, me, eunice timothy and john. our theme was retro. after the briefing. we chiong to bugis street to shop for our neccesities. yea!! i was the model.

we bought:
1. a retro dress at $15
2. head band free of charge(original $2)
3. oldies shades at $14.90(original $18.90)
4. bag at $6(original $6.90)
5. earrings at $2
6. bangles at $ 7.80

we had sometime at the cafe. john order a plate of salad, joey a sandwich and i ordered a plate of wedges. we shared. john treated us lemonade. THANKS JOHN!! he is nice. tim was rather quiet when we realise that he had actually finish a suduku. lols.

we choing back to tiong bahru after that. i got dressed up. and we get ready for the competition. i looked really retro then. i was shy. everyone seems to be looking at miie. joan and gang said i was sexy. lols. okay.

then it was sometime for catwalk. john keep making miie laugh. maybe i m not used to how he said. okay. it was fun overall.

den it was sometime for snacks. after that the judges gave some comment on our clothes. in the in end. oriental got 2nd and we got 1st. i was totally shocked. haha. but we won $100 CK tang voucher. goodie goodie. can shop again. =D

SEAN THANKS ALOT!!


nothing really special about today. ytd i received another person's comment. which was good. i can always learn from my mistakes.

i go to school early with xiaoyun with mr nazar. i feel very stress with her. whenever i dun wan to do the things i dun wan to do she will give miie stress. she wants miie to abide to her wants. i dun wan to be her slave leis. i dun like that leis. but i dun wan to dun care her leis. i dun feel good also. everytime when i dun wan she will persuade until i say yes. and i dun wan i always haf to give in to her. i m like a fool. very stressful.

okays nvm. today was the last day of reading card programme. yes!! finally. fel fel asked miie whether i had lu guang shen ling and xin niang 18 nots. i told her i gonna buy. i will buy real soon mans. her com spoiled liao. sadd sia. i missed lu guang shen ling ytd and today. and i m so angry. i told myself, since i saw the 2nd episode in taiwan last year, i will buy the show. u channel very kind leis. but i missed so many. i love yan yan and yuan jing tian!! actually they are more compatible. song zhi ai deserve nothing better than a beating mans. duno in the end yan yan will die anot. i wanna buy. i hope that ai qing mo fai shi also will show in s'pore next time. xin niang 18 sui my aunt lending this nov.

okay. after reading card i went for 20th anniversary thingy. i might be singing for that day.

i came home and haf lunch and den set off to takashimaya for facial treatment. Ann says too long din go back liao. so got lots of pimples. cos i din drink enough water and got too stress liao. today she gave miie a total wipe out. she cleared the "toxin" on my face. painful laa. especially after 3 months liao.

after that. i went to paragon to meet my mom aunt and meii. mommy gave miie another M1 line. i will haf 2 lines for this 4 months. big business. i got a new handphone too. well. okay laa. not bad. i m a M1 customer now.

tired liao. take care all my family members. take care. lurve you all. i wanna abandon xiaoyun again can anot? i really very stress liao. :<


today's joanny gal burday. wish her all the best. HAPPY BIRTHDAY to JOAN!!

well today is rather bored. i when to school for reading programme. and den waited for joey after her modern dance. i went back to choir for a while. my singing is going from bad to worse. oh my god! yaa next week will be a touch up week. i m stupid. need lots of touch up on my subjects. especially my combined humanites. who can help miie with that. i wan to get a distinction or a B grade for my combined humanities. i really wan to. my "o" level i hope that i could get a L1R5 of 11. is that possible??

my targets:

English-----------------------B3
Mother Tongue---------------A1
Additional Mathematics------A1
Elementary Mathematics-----A1
Biology----------------------B3
Chemistry-------------------A1/A2
Physics----------------------B3/B4
Combined Humanities-------A2/B3

work hard now. i will be a better person everyday. that's my principle. yes i will uphold it with wat i can!! all the best to myself!!


060606 a great day i will not forget.

i haf friends. true friends. the told miie about my mistakes.

till today i den realised. i m actually a "overly-nice" person. i m a inconsiderate gal who sings and annoys ppl. hurrm. i also mustn't haf too big an action when i m speaking. i shldnt "interupt" ppl when even they duno how to answer the question they ask among themselvesi laugh too loud sometimes. i duno actually i had inconvinence so many ppl. god is nice. it rain for the whole day today. i was so drenched today. i had so many bad points. but i m so glad that it was being reflected. though it sounds a little piercing. but i'll be fine. i wanna improve. i will try my best to dissolve my problems.

actually i was really stressed up these few days. i even got a thinking of wanting to commit sucide. choy!! haiis. cos i tot i could not share with my friends. i need to paced myself a little. i shan't be so stress animore. i wanna be happier. i promise i will think b4 i do things now. think hard or judge hard of whether or not i can or cant do. i wan as many ppl to be happy. i really hope i could be the one that creates smiles and laughter in class, not annoyance. i got good, supportive friends. lurve you gals so much.

to you that i hurt. sorry i had onli thought why you treat miie so distantly. so cold. but never put myself in your shoe. i m so sorry that i din think so much. you're right. i m really a big kpo and irritating. you din tell miie this and i noe why you din now. i wun blame you animore. you haf your own身不由己. sorry i din realise until now. i m too selfish to think just why you treat miie so coldly. instead i should think why did you haf to treat miie so coldly. i should be more senstive to you. sorry. i m not fit to like anione. including you. but thanks for appearing in my life too. i m glad what you haf tell miie indirectly.

if time permits. i would really wanna be a really good friend of yours. you're great. i had took out your photo and cleanse it under rain water. or i call it the holy water. you will be well-blessed. you'll.

i wun be doing my bad "things" i haf done as much as possible with effect of tmr. thanks for the feedback pals. lurve you gals lots. thanks for all of your existence pals. =D

HAPPY SWEET 16 to my milkk daughter JOAN!!


i got a new "milkk family member"-----gabriel had officially become my milkk brother. yaa. he very small laa. 3rd smallest in our class. but he will be a nice brother of mine. =D

ytd xiaoyun and our class top ten came back frm their incentive programme. i heard from sean it is more of intensive than incentive. LOLS. but i hope that they had overall enjoyed themselves. haha.

yeah... my mei is back. ytd i was so happie to see her at airport, i cried. lurve her so much and finally got to see her. i hugged her very tightly and cried. i missed her too much. my pappy and gang say i can go take acting course liao le. cos i very easy cry. LOLS. but i m really glad that she is finally back. in singapore. yes!!

later going to sean sonny's church. cityharvest rocks!! my sister's going too.

tata~~


god. i miss you quite abit lately. i m sorry.

i m worrying for my sons and daughters. sean is unwell today. ytd he left sch early. yaa. SEAN GET WELL SOON leis. class was abit quiet today. yaa. come back and sign on my burday card arhs. joan was moody lately. hope she's better. JOAN SMILE MORE OFTEN. preben got very tense up lately. in fact for quite sometime liao. he is not as active and optimistic like last year. hurmmm... PREBEN RELAX YOUR NEURONS!! xiao yun going off to malaysia. XIAO YUN TAKE GOOD CARE OF YOURSELF when you are at malaysia.

god i really hope god can hear miie. i hope that i could haf the power and ability to withstand the current uncomfortable and unsecure feelings. i miss my april days. when i was happy all the way. this month is yucky!! and lucky it is ending in a few minutes. hope that june will be good.
abigail good luck for your chem test tmr. sorry if i din help.

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