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Monday, September 03, 2007,5:25 PM
SCARED!
perhaps that should be my present tense. there is the 18 days before the arrival of my promos. this is like so fast. i m really scare. i scare i m not prepared enough. i think even sammy and gladys can do well for their promos. but what about myself. intensity filled me to the brim recently. i m in the midst of exams preparation. i m starting with chemistry. THE subject i love. i want to do well for this. i dun wanna to disappoint myself with another D. at least a B. then i will work hard for an A great which will be maintained till my 'A' levels. everyone is putting in their 150% in their promos. 200% in their PW. i m not going to let my PW rot again. i want a good written report. i m scared. fear could be felt in every inch of my mind, heart and soul. i m really worried sick. tzexin said to me that day. if you have the time to scare, why dun you spend it on your studies. i said i do both at the same time.
economics and general paper. the 2 subjects i detest and worry for the most. i must try to like them. i try to understand economics, which is basically an alien subject that gives me a hard time and take up loads of my time. "Should i spend my time in doing more 'meaningful' things, studying for chem!" Chemistry and Mathematics are still subjects of my interests. studying them is never a torment. doing them is never a burden. but i must revise them properly. recently i didnt perform well for this 2 sujects too! because i didnt study well enough for this 2 subjects. luckily there is a consolidation period of 1 week, which is this week. i gonna do productive study! but definitely not at home.
i wanna admit that after coming to pj. i m 'so not according to my principle and i m mad. i cant concentrate during some lessons. i tend to hand in homework late. sometimes i do homework just for the sake of doing, sometime because i fear the teacher will scold me because i didnt complete my tutorial before lessons so i copied! wah! what's cindy becoming? i filing system, except for math and chem, seems to be in a mess. i become forgetful. i forgot sometimes about test dates, remedial venues, etc. in the past i used to be one of the clearest about these matters. i need to find back my lost soul. i must do it fast. within this 18 days. i BELIEVE i can do it!
this 2 days i have a very good rest. i also discovered the importance of my sister. i lover JOEY!i m so crazy this 2 days. it seems that i m letting out all my unhappiness through my crazy movements! i went shopping with my sister that day! and we did had a good shop. i m a member of SARA & PAT! finally. i bought myself a orange there! hurrays~ i waited for 4 months and finally i can own one. so after going to far east, my sister and i went down to bugis. this time my papa came and meet us. actually my intend there was to buy a tunic of my favourite color blue but there isnt one! gees~ my sister bought another grey one instead. sad mans! she got 2 le. one black another grey. never mind we can share. then she encouraged me to buy a black skinnies with her. she got herself the 2nd pair. she bought white this time. papa sponsor me $10 for the pants. he then took out another $50 saying that we can buy what we want with ther $50. my sister bought another 2 t-shirt with printed words for $10 each and i decided to keep the $30 left over. i came home after that. waited for sanjiu and sanjiumu to come for mahjiong session.i won $7 that day.
here are some pictures taken that day~
yesterday went studying with fel and my sister at jurong library. guess what i set the alarm at 8am and it didnt ring. =.= i overslept. grr. so i rushed down with my sister via a cab. we reached and settled there at around 10.45am. productive study~ i did some chem notes. before my cousins came to join me and asked me loads of questions. i didnt manage to finish arenes notes and i think its a waste. i must finish organic chem revision tomorrow! hope that everything goes well! after studying fel me and joey went to bugis and EAT! we talk alot on the way. haha. here are some more shots.
today going to study again. must turn in liao. otherwise will be very tired tmr~
goodnight!
Hello. I'm cindyC!. I'm TWENTY years old. Borned on 24th MAY '90