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Saturday, October 18, 2008,1:42 PM
feeling the same...
it is really very saddening when things is not the same as before. when misunderstanding climb so high...
oh god. i do really miss him so much.
i m actually lost and confuse. yet i have to feign ignorance about things i know.
blocking him is my fault i m aware. but do you know how much i m hurt when i m aware that i m not forgiven. you are acting as though you had. if you do not want to sit with me, why dont you tell me. i m even more hurt when i was named as a hypocrite by you. you are not true to me anymore. i know you like someone else. even so why must you insist of not believing that i like you.
you were the one that pulled me up from the valley and brought me to a higher summit. now you pushed me down again. why?
its painful i bet you dont know. its more painful than you thought. you must be laughing hard at me now. you must have been thinking that its you yourself that bring yourself to this sorrowful state. you must be thinking again that cindy is trying to get people to pity her.
if i m this kind of person to you that is a heavy enough punishment. i m oblivious to things now. but i shall not make more people worry for me.
my motive for telling you i like is not to make you mock at me, nor wanting to feel the same way for me. in fact i know it's impossible. i just want to tell you why i felt awkward at times. that's all.
yupps that's all for today.
Hello. I'm cindyC!. I'm TWENTY years old. Borned on 24th MAY '90